metro

insomnia - delicious and devastating, it rules my life.

can't sleep. it's been 2 mos since i found out i was being cheated on, and i'm still dealing with it.

do you get over it? eventually? when???

i'm trying to forgive, i really am...i believe i'm supposed to forgive. but the way it all happened was so cold and calculated, really somewhat cruel.

i guess i could try to sleep...worst i could do is...
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good grief, these irish are pissing me off! they have all the consistency of diarrhea. still, they're MY team, and so i cheer them on...even though they give me so much grief and agita.

in other news, the jobhunt continues (slowly). and i guess i better get back to studying. this is my last year of school - i should be studious for at least...
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nothing new.

i'm going to Purdue this weekend, to visit a friend from Germany. he's a Purdue student. i'm glad that we keep in touch, and i can't wait because it expect that this weekend is going to be tons of fun.

of course, before i drive down, i should probably find my glasses, as i not only am legally required to wear them while...
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this weekend crushed me. if you have any soul, don't mention anything related to that school up north to me ever...or at least until further notice. this was a hard emotional loss...arg.

so, i drew up a list of American cities to start my jobhunt. SF, DC, and Chicago are up top (in that order), followed by distant contenders Austin, Milwaukee, Seattle, Philly, and Atlanta...
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back to normal...

nothing to vindicate my existence...

today i had an awkward moment.

i looked at myself in the mirror and thought, "wow dmytro, you look rather sexy today." this is a rare moment, almost unprecedented.

is this a bad thing? narcississm bothers me. i'd like to think that i'm not a narcississt. on the other hand, i would like to think that, to at least one other person, i am an...
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ever wonder how people figure out that they can stick a sword down their throat?

or snap silverware with their asscheeks?

i mean honestly, how does the idea pop into someone's head to begin with, let alone, the idea to actually try doing it?

i'm a confused little boy...

so, i guess i kinda have the classic defence mechanism of not letting people get too close. it has nothing to do with them seeing the imperfections in me - those should be obvious. it has nothing to do with the imperfections in them - those are expected.

i just don't trust anyone.

afer my experiences the past few years, i don't see how i...
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Dear Law School,

Piss off! I just need a little sleep so I can stop being sick.

Much obliged,

moi*


*heh heh, i almost signed with my real name...i wonder if i can get away with that? my school would certainly have a few disagreeable comments about me belonging to this community, given all the flesh flying around and the Catholic opposition to, um, flesh...
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sicker....

sick