So I've been hesitant for a while to post this because I'm not sure how it will be received...but I feel like that's all I will do if I keep putting it off. So here goes, and I will preface this with a trigger warning:
A while ago (a few months) I was hospitalized for suicidal intent. While I will not go into detail I can say it was one of the hardest and most terrifying experiences I've ever experienced. I will say though, it was one of the most important things I've ever experienced. I came out of it with a different perspective for life and for the things that truly matter. I did notice one thing while I spent my time in there though and I would like to share this with all of you: those people who had support systems and people around them who love them in the end seemed to recover faster (or recover period) than those who didn't. So I suppose one of the many take-aways from going through this is to have support, whether it's a close friend or a family member.
Also there are resources out there if you feel lost, you are not alone in this. Anyway that's just my very brief story; I tell it in the hopes that if even one person finds it helpful, then it was worth it in the long run.