well, through this whole friendship dilemma, i have learned a lot, mostly about myself. mostly how i need to wake up and consider my own feelings for once. how i really do deserve better, because i'm not so bad after all. and no one should ever stoop to the level of those girls, so i don't know why i have been doing it for years and years.
i've also learned that there are real, special, caring people out there. people who are more kind and more considerate than those people i have been considering my "best friends," even though i hardly know them. and with whom i share more in common, both interests and personality. of course, i'm talking about all of you! when i wrote that last journal entry, i did it because i needed to get a lot off of my chest. never did i expect so much support and love and good advice. seriously, you guys really made me feel special, and really helped me put things into perspective, by boosting my confidence enough to realize what was really going on instead of taking the abuse and blaming it on myself like i always do. and for letting me know that i'm not alone. i am content enough to realize that the only thing i am to blame for is letting this go on as long as it has.
but this experience has done something even more important for me. it has provided me with an opportunity to start a new life. i now have a drive to discover all the things about life and love and friendship that i've been so blindsighted about. i have a feeling that i'm finally going to reach the point where i feel complete. it's exciting! so look out world, cause here i come. and i'm not taking any shit this time.
i've also learned that there are real, special, caring people out there. people who are more kind and more considerate than those people i have been considering my "best friends," even though i hardly know them. and with whom i share more in common, both interests and personality. of course, i'm talking about all of you! when i wrote that last journal entry, i did it because i needed to get a lot off of my chest. never did i expect so much support and love and good advice. seriously, you guys really made me feel special, and really helped me put things into perspective, by boosting my confidence enough to realize what was really going on instead of taking the abuse and blaming it on myself like i always do. and for letting me know that i'm not alone. i am content enough to realize that the only thing i am to blame for is letting this go on as long as it has.
but this experience has done something even more important for me. it has provided me with an opportunity to start a new life. i now have a drive to discover all the things about life and love and friendship that i've been so blindsighted about. i have a feeling that i'm finally going to reach the point where i feel complete. it's exciting! so look out world, cause here i come. and i'm not taking any shit this time.
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that's great news.
lots of love to you, chickie.
i'm always around if you need an ear, ok?
come visit.
we will kick ass together.
oh.. and this is a stretch, but judging my your music stuff.. i have to ask: were you ever into the "rave" scene in philly?
xox
and you dont look like barbara streisand [ew!]. i can KIND OF see the sara jessica parker, but shes hot, so thats a good thing [dixie chicks? waaaay off track].