These past few days have been quite boring, nearly miserable at the same time in many ways. Nothing really new, with 2 months to go before I graduate from film school I am not looking forward to being the guy who gets Richard Dean Anderson his coffee. I do have my own dreams but at times I have a hard time trying to find the motivation to go after them. Right now it seems like I am just around to strengthen everyone elses projects. Right now the project I would like to do is maybe a documentary on KMFDM or Iced Earth. Its obvious to me that doing film projects wont work for me right now with little or no crew. Still very much heart broken right now as well, probably one reason for my saddness at this point, even sadder that my heart says Kat is the one. Much more sadder that before I met her I would imagine the woman of my dreams; smart, independent, strong (emotionally), natural beauty (woman who doesn't need make up to enhance herself), full of energy, and last but not least a good taste in much (rock music). I met her and she was everything I was looking for, but bad relationships that she had prior have left in a place where she doesn't want to fall in love with anyone. I always seem to be at the wrong place or wrong time, god must be pulling a terrible joke on me. Well that is it for now I guess. 