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metalphilia

Bumfuck, Egypt

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Monday Oct 11, 2010

Oct 11, 2010
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I want to go back, but I don't know if I'm ready yet. I don't want to run away from what's been hurting me anymore. I want to crush that fear of what I might see with my fists and laugh at it. But I have no idea if going back will make me stronger, or if it will just rip a big hole in me.

I simply don't want to run anymore. I just want to be truly happy.

Oh, and apparently people have been complaining about my "attitude" at work. Which is horseshit, because I always make sure to be super-polite to everyone, even the people who are assholes to me. And still, people complain. I can never win, can I? I just wanna go one week without hearing something negative about my performance at work. I'm trying really hard, I'm doing everything properly, I know I am. So, why does everyone complain?? surreal
I work at 7 am tomorrow. I really don't feel like going in.

I'm so fucking stressed, it's not even funny. But I hope you're all doing well. kiss
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darkchocolate:
For some reason, when I read your post, Mary J's song "Be Happy" came to mind. Facing your fears is great, just do it when you are ready. It may be a little painful at times but in the end you will come out bigger, stronger and better than when you started. Keep your head up, you will be alright.

as far as people at work.... Fuck-em! as long as your work perfomance is good, let it speak for itself.

sending some positive energy your way.....biggrin
Oct 11, 2010
brightredscream:
Lots of positive energies for you sugar ♥
Oct 12, 2010

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