metalphilia

I am officially not a teenager. Thank fucking god. Although, I still feel so small and child-like sometimes. It's weird.

I need to find some way to forgive myself. I really can't be miserable like this forever. I need to figure out how to let go of this, or it will kill me. I need to find some way to leave the past in the past, and not carry this with me wherever I go. I have no idea how I'm going to do that. But I just have to figure it out. I don't have any other choice.

Today will be filled with floppy emotions, me trying to avoid everyone on the planet in an attempt to not snap at people because of my floppy emotions, and tears. Letting go often includes some tears, right?

Oh yeah, fatigue will be in there, too. The assholes who live in the house behind me are hammering something, and they won't let me sleep.