metalmarna

Porcelain
Do you carry the moon in your womb
Someone said that youre fading too soon
Drifting and floating and fading away

Porcelain
Are you wasting away in your skin
Are you missing the love of your kin
Nodding and melting and fading away . . .



Hmmm, I think I'm going to seal my tear ducts with super glue.

So I had this crazy surreal dream about Gabriel, the drummer of the Rolling Blackouts, last night. I've only hung out with Gabriel at a couple Warped Tour dates and saw him again at their record release party here in LA - anyway - the point is, I just met him a couple of months ago and we've only hung out just enough to know...
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It's been a long, drawn out, overly dramatic week but I made it out alive (just barely).

It is so hard to know what is right to do and what is wrong when you are blinded by loves dangerous demeanor. And stepping on glass every time I speak or take action is no way to live - I know.

What I am going through -...
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My days are numbered . . .

I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath thats true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
Youll come apart and youll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with whats not there.

Fade into you
Strange...
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Why do we feel if sometimes feeling is as painful as dying?!!

On the other hand, sometimes you hurt so bad - you become feelingless . . . numb . . . like as if there is only so much pain you can take from inside you that your body just shuts off. BAM! completely. And you feel nothing. Nothing at all.

It's weird. I'm...
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It has been a couple days since my last entry. Since then, things have been looking on the up and up. I took some time evaluating the crazy situation I'm in and just realized that festering over such things that I have no control over takes a way from the time that I could be happy and content with all the days I have with...
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I have no soul. I have no name.

I was the one . . . the one worth leaving.

thedefeated sleeps alone tonight.



. . . . . oh yeah, don't bother calling. I won't be around to pick up the phone.

I want to be beautiful. Like you.

I went to SF last weekend and I had a wonderful time.

I love it there.

I would move up there (not the city, but somewhere close) for a year or two so i can 'get the led out'! yeah, definitly.


QUOTE OF THE DAY:
poseurtastic: there's something great about being able to capture what you see rather than what the world sees in you....
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