I've come to a few conclusions and made a few observations in the past two weeks.
#1- My mom is crazy. And still an alcoholic. She's back up to a bottle of wine a night.
#2- My dad is also crazy. And also still an alcoholic. And dying. His various diseases are really wearing him down. Especially the congestive heart failure. And as much as I love him and understand that he's going through hell, he's driving me CRAZY. "We're really poor and having a hard time paying back the loans for your school...But I want to buy this $2,000 sailing dinghy that I'll never use or end up drowning if i do use" or "I'm gonna start eating better and excersizing....As soon as I finish this chocolate shake and french fries" or "I'm dying and can't walk....but I'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself!"
#3- My nephews are AMAZING. Owain and Dylan are quite possibly the most amazing kids on the face of the planet. Even when they're tired and tantruming.
#4- My brother is an asshole. But I still love him and respect him above pretty much everyone.
#5- My sister-in-law is infinitely awesomer than she was last year. She's stopped acting like a 14 year old and started acting like an adult who can handle herself (and her children). It's about time!
#6- I've decided that no one is actually gonna want to be in a relationship with me until I'm skinny. They're willing to fuck me, but not date me. Same old story since I hit puberty
#7- Losing weight is gonna suck. A lot. I'm about 100lbs overweight right now. Which means I have a lot of work ahead of me. Yeah for diet and excersize
I've been overweight since age 6. I want to be skinny so I can wear fashionable clothes, feel sexy, be healthy and enjoy my youth. And all of you can help by encouraging me to keep on the weight loss crusade!
#8- Goddamn I'm queer. Something about the last few months has made me SUPER QUEER. Wierd. But good
Women are sexier/better in bed anyways.
Thank you for listening.
#1- My mom is crazy. And still an alcoholic. She's back up to a bottle of wine a night.
#2- My dad is also crazy. And also still an alcoholic. And dying. His various diseases are really wearing him down. Especially the congestive heart failure. And as much as I love him and understand that he's going through hell, he's driving me CRAZY. "We're really poor and having a hard time paying back the loans for your school...But I want to buy this $2,000 sailing dinghy that I'll never use or end up drowning if i do use" or "I'm gonna start eating better and excersizing....As soon as I finish this chocolate shake and french fries" or "I'm dying and can't walk....but I'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself!"
#3- My nephews are AMAZING. Owain and Dylan are quite possibly the most amazing kids on the face of the planet. Even when they're tired and tantruming.
#4- My brother is an asshole. But I still love him and respect him above pretty much everyone.
#5- My sister-in-law is infinitely awesomer than she was last year. She's stopped acting like a 14 year old and started acting like an adult who can handle herself (and her children). It's about time!
#6- I've decided that no one is actually gonna want to be in a relationship with me until I'm skinny. They're willing to fuck me, but not date me. Same old story since I hit puberty
#7- Losing weight is gonna suck. A lot. I'm about 100lbs overweight right now. Which means I have a lot of work ahead of me. Yeah for diet and excersize
I've been overweight since age 6. I want to be skinny so I can wear fashionable clothes, feel sexy, be healthy and enjoy my youth. And all of you can help by encouraging me to keep on the weight loss crusade!
#8- Goddamn I'm queer. Something about the last few months has made me SUPER QUEER. Wierd. But good
Women are sexier/better in bed anyways.
Thank you for listening.
Losing weight does suck, but it's easier when 1) people encourage you in a kind - not condescending - way; 2) you have someone to be accountable to, besides yourself; 3) you can find an activity you enjoy that also happens to burn lots of calories!
So go kick ass! And being queer rocks!