one.oh.three.
gasp.
I'M OVER MY PLATEAU!
i honestly was beginning to think that was it. which was going to be really sad and strange.
i don't feel it. i was wishing last night that i could have someone secretly photograph me all day long on a regular day just so i can really see what i look like. i still look huge, in my vision. and even when i look at pictures of myself from back in the day when i weighed exactly this much, i swear i look so much skinnier then. it doesn't make sense but it's true. gah. i don't know. but 103. thank god.
staying up until 7:30 am last night (this morning) started out as not feeling like going to bed, then progressed into getting sucked into various movies on the movie channels, then just not being able to sleep even though i was sleepy as hell because i hadn't taken the sleep meds. finally fell asleep on the couch with the birds chirping outside and sean penn acting mentally challenged on the tv screen. i wake up at 8:59 and i immediately know that jason isn't up. when he needed to leave for work at 9. so i wake him up, and try to comprehend what's happening, still half asleep. it's so weird that the one night i have ever not slept in his bed with him, he doesn't wake up on time. i also find it weird that i woke up for no reason just in time to get him up. anytime i wake up late for something, which has been a LOT, i always wake up literally JUST in time, like my body clock or SOMETHING knows i should be up. it's so cool.
anyways.
GOALS.
98.
Try to be fuckin happy.
Get AU stuff done.
Go through boxes and get rid of as much stuff as possible.
Get organized with the stuff I don't throw away.
Stop being a slug.
Try to be fuckin happy.
Keep up with the dishes so we don't feel like we live in a real world house where no one cleans and the dirty dishes have overflown from the sink onto the countertops and the kitchen table. Yeah, gross. I fail at being a housewife. Hope no one has their heart set on marrying me.
Try to be fuckin happy!
And distract your mind! Stay busy! Dammit.
gasp.
I'M OVER MY PLATEAU!
i honestly was beginning to think that was it. which was going to be really sad and strange.
i don't feel it. i was wishing last night that i could have someone secretly photograph me all day long on a regular day just so i can really see what i look like. i still look huge, in my vision. and even when i look at pictures of myself from back in the day when i weighed exactly this much, i swear i look so much skinnier then. it doesn't make sense but it's true. gah. i don't know. but 103. thank god.
staying up until 7:30 am last night (this morning) started out as not feeling like going to bed, then progressed into getting sucked into various movies on the movie channels, then just not being able to sleep even though i was sleepy as hell because i hadn't taken the sleep meds. finally fell asleep on the couch with the birds chirping outside and sean penn acting mentally challenged on the tv screen. i wake up at 8:59 and i immediately know that jason isn't up. when he needed to leave for work at 9. so i wake him up, and try to comprehend what's happening, still half asleep. it's so weird that the one night i have ever not slept in his bed with him, he doesn't wake up on time. i also find it weird that i woke up for no reason just in time to get him up. anytime i wake up late for something, which has been a LOT, i always wake up literally JUST in time, like my body clock or SOMETHING knows i should be up. it's so cool.
anyways.
GOALS.
98.
Try to be fuckin happy.
Get AU stuff done.
Go through boxes and get rid of as much stuff as possible.
Get organized with the stuff I don't throw away.
Stop being a slug.
Try to be fuckin happy.
Keep up with the dishes so we don't feel like we live in a real world house where no one cleans and the dirty dishes have overflown from the sink onto the countertops and the kitchen table. Yeah, gross. I fail at being a housewife. Hope no one has their heart set on marrying me.
Try to be fuckin happy!
And distract your mind! Stay busy! Dammit.
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blucass:
I'm actually surprised by the bmi calculations. Usually they're waaaay inaccurate. Meh. I gave up worrying about my weight, just my health. But supposedly I've lost weight... must be the mono. 
jcrabapple:
i kinda have my heart set on marrying you so you'd better get to washin. j/k i love you. i will wash the rest of the dishes today. and i will try to keep up with them when i get home from work everyday. :-)