if anyone would like to talk about elf with me for hours on end, please send me an instant message, and we will commence to do so. i think jason is tiring of my persistent elf quoting. it just makes me so happy.
thanksgving, yeah yeah, etc etc. i hate forced updates.
2-4-6-8 starts on thursday. timed so i can have 800 on my big finals day, as well as on christmas day. i can't decide if i should seize these last few days to eat while i still can, or if i should be easing myself into that rough first day of 200 cals. chances are, i'll go for the first option.
i don't really know where went my motivation. i did so well with 600/day for so long, and lost so much. then it was like something just snapped and i wanted to be happy and eat food again. alas, i must simply keep my eye on the prize. staring at pictures of that 100 lb girl (aka, me 2 years ago) about 50 times a day definetely helps. and thinking about how much my mom and grandpa gushed over me on txgiving, how good i looked and what not.....i think about that, amplified by 15 more pounds gone, and it mattering more when it's my old friends and people who thought i would never be that skinny girl again. about being able to sit at the desk in the back room at work without feeling desperately self-conscious about my tummy sticking out of the bottom of my shirt. about being able to allow people to poke or pinch my side without squriming away. well, eff you. i'll see you in 20 days, bitches. oh yeah, and i love you.
i'm hungry.
thanksgving, yeah yeah, etc etc. i hate forced updates.
2-4-6-8 starts on thursday. timed so i can have 800 on my big finals day, as well as on christmas day. i can't decide if i should seize these last few days to eat while i still can, or if i should be easing myself into that rough first day of 200 cals. chances are, i'll go for the first option.
i don't really know where went my motivation. i did so well with 600/day for so long, and lost so much. then it was like something just snapped and i wanted to be happy and eat food again. alas, i must simply keep my eye on the prize. staring at pictures of that 100 lb girl (aka, me 2 years ago) about 50 times a day definetely helps. and thinking about how much my mom and grandpa gushed over me on txgiving, how good i looked and what not.....i think about that, amplified by 15 more pounds gone, and it mattering more when it's my old friends and people who thought i would never be that skinny girl again. about being able to sit at the desk in the back room at work without feeling desperately self-conscious about my tummy sticking out of the bottom of my shirt. about being able to allow people to poke or pinch my side without squriming away. well, eff you. i'll see you in 20 days, bitches. oh yeah, and i love you.
i'm hungry.
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So, can I say that it doesnt look like you need to lose any wieght? You look really fit and fine in your photos. But I have learned that one should support a girl who desires to diet so I hope that it works well for you.
[Edited on Dec 03, 2004 8:11PM]