Blog homework: Who do you reach out to when you're feeling down?

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As I previously stated in my previous blog homework, I have a long history of mental illness. I suffer from BPD, so I often feel down, abandoned, unloved. I used to want to reach out to people I trusted, people I loved, but growing up, you have to face this horrendous reality: you're always on your own.

So I stopped reaching out to people. Since december, I have had Lilly in my life. She's two now, and arrived to us scared, abused my cruel people and for a time, we could not approach her. Somehow, Lilly and I realised we were quite similar. And since then, she has brought me tears of joy, moments of intense trust and cuddle, and a lifetime of love.

Being away from her is incredibly hard. She's my only family here and I never expected to be a cat mom. But here I am. And I love her to pieces.

What about you? Do you feel a strong connection to your pet? To another human?

I mean look at her perfect face! ❤️

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merigold:
@freakme Only saw this now! Damn... Late answer but still. BPD is also named EUPD, Borderline Personality Disorder / Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder. In other words, it's an illness which prevents us to process emotions correctly, we feel too much, we have a phobia of abandon, we are prompt to anger, and so many other things. It has manifestations of high anxiety and depression for me. In other words, completely emotionally unstable.
freakme:
@merigold Thanks for responding! At my age, I'm losing hope because of physical issues of autoimmune issues. The combo of my thinking and this I feel hopeless.

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