meridien

kid A sends shivers down my spine, this song is a definition of perfection.
i finally broke down and had sex, it was very nice, there is not a whole lot of attraction to him on any level so for some reason this makes me think it will be fine. i sat on his bed for an hour drinking whiskey before i realized i'd better just do it before i got to drunk to get off. on the down side of the situation i feel guilty becausei don't want to run my hands over him because whenever i have ever done that to anyone it was because i loved them. on the bright side, his sarcasm is frightfully refreshing, i'm fucking sick of people trying to be positive all the time, it doesn't seem real.

i'm just glad to be sleeping next to someone again.