mercuryknight

So I have come to a few realizations with the help of a previous ex of mine. We talked and kinda had a fight. She told me how it was and I thought about it. Seriously sat down and went over every word of our fight.

I am an idiot for not realizing what I was doing or how I was doing it. I totally didn't treat those around me like I should of. I might of seemed like I was listening but I wasn't. I was manipulating everything around me without really realizing it. I pushed people away because of this. I was selfish, and didn't do what I should of done. I let my life hang on without pushing for things I should of been striving for to begin with.

I never really opened my eyes to everyone around me. I fucked up big time, and now all I can do is move forward. Learn from what happened and strife for what should of been years ago. Maybe even if I finally get done what I should of done in the beginning, I will deserve the companionship of the one that recently left me if she decides she even wants me again...

Anyway I am done complaining, whining and all around thinking about myself when it comes to what I did. I will strife to be a better man from this moment on.