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mercie

Baltimore, MD. East Coast for life, yo.

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Good evening, all. Since it seems the time I post thing isn't right on here for my east coast time, it is 7:25 pm... The Flash's mom Jamie is on her way over to pick him up (finally - this experience just reinforces the fact that I do not ever need to own a dog). Jay's left to go home.
My weekend had its up and down points, as my life always does.
Going to the ex's show for his band, seeing all his family and friends, everyone greeted me warmly, but they never care to associate with me any other time. No phone calls, no letters, nothing. So, I realized while sitting in that bar that I just have to move on. Forget about the past. It's hard to do, but, I have to try. I don't think I was trying hard enough up until now. The person I do miss the most is Steve's mother. She was more like a mother to me than anyone in my life, and I wish I didn't have to leave her behind too, but I do, because every time I talk to her or see her I just think about how they treat Steve's current girlfriend how they had treated me - like one of their own. And it feels like betrayal, and I can't deal with that underneath the surface. It makes me so sad.
Things just aren't going the way they should be. I am so into Jay, but he can't be that into me, for his own personal reasons. At least we talked about it, and I am content to keep seeing him under casual pretences. Maybe one day he'll come around. He's worth the wait, I know.
So here's to a quiet, uneventful evening, because my weekend has left me emotionally drained.
Wish I had better news to share, but not every day is sunshine!
Tomorrow, I am calling about four jobs I have found in the local paper. I hope one of them is for me. I need to get back on track and quit being so irresponsible.

Behold, my new favorite song. Blink 182, VIOLENCE It's amazing.
Like violence
You have me
Forever and after
Like violence
You kill me
Forever and after

Random crazy shit:



Does anyone else see this scary resemblance between Jay and Donnie Darko? If we work out, Halloween-time, he and I are Donnie and Gretchen. Oh yeah.

Question of the day:
What's one of the most beautiful things you've ever seen?
VIEW 11 of 11 COMMENTS
shewulf:
Hey I'm so glad that you like my alias...Also I think that Jay does look kinda like Donnie Darko....Sounds like a great idea for halloween costumes....

Hmmmm the most beautiful thing I have ever seen...thats a tough one cause everyone on this site is beautiful.....I would have to say That i cant answer that question...there is so much beauty to pick just one thing would be wrong...
Apr 5, 2004
shewulf:
In that case I'm going to pick you since you were the last beautiful thing I saw today... smile
Apr 5, 2004

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