I kept seeing faces in trees today. Like these big gentle faces staring back at me...it made me feel peaceful. I definitely needed that. I had a follow up dentist appointment today to finish a root canal (yep, that sucked)...but bonus!!, I only cried 3 times while he finished instead of the whopping 12-ish times on the first leg of the root canal. Anxiety sucks, being afraid of the dentist sucks too. The dental assistant was really super nice and held my hand when I would start shaking and tears were running down my face, oh she wiped my tears away too. I should get her a gift because I have never had such a caring person in the room with me while I am freaking out and having anxiety attacks left and right. She was there again today, and did the same thing. So nice.
(insert random 1 hour blog typing break to eat ice cream and watch some of my fav cam girls)
Those faces in the trees though, it was so calming to me. I had the time to take a quick swim at the pool we have at work today too! It's closing this weekend, so I only have a few days left to enjoy it!!
So, if you don't like graphic-ish things, SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH! ^_^ Okay so, I've been kind of bleeding this week, and that is strange for me, because of: reasons. So I am not used to having it, and it's such a foreign fucking thing to me, which sometimes makes me feel like less of a woman and that I don't belong in some super secret period club. Anyways, I was house sitting for my friend who also is letting me keep my kitten there indefinitely until I get my own place...and for some reason I don't masturbate when I'm there, which is kind of strange. (Did I mention I was there for 10 days??!! lol) Though, I didn't really notice with all the kitten snuggling... haha. So last night I finally came home since my friend came back from his vacation, and I was laying in bed about to go to sleep and I realized I have been without any orgasms for WAY too long! So I did the deed...twice and it was wonderful, just clit stimulation though and I promptly fell asleep. Anyways....today after swimming I was in the restroom changing out of my bathing suit, and for some reason I felt the urge to have an orgasm...sooo I did, and I kind of forgot about the whole kind of bleeding thing! I brought my hand up to add some spit to my fingers and saw blood on them, and for some reason it didn't gross me out at all, I didn't lick my fingers, just spit on them and proceeded to have two freaking blow out orgasms! Is that what it's like when a lady is on her period? I'm not sure...I am also not sure if it was just my body being happy to have orgasms and I just hand fucked myself right, but either way, it was great. I always thought it would gross me out if I was bleeding and to have any type of sexual activities. It wasn't. Tonight, I sleep happy and content. (some really weird shit happened with my sister when I got home from work, but I am just brushing that shit off my shoulders and letting the good shit keep on rolling!)
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