meoow

Hi!
I'm always the one who make everybody laugh and sometimes I don't care if they laugh AT me or with me, I just like to see people enjoying the moment, but sometimes it's hard...I'm having some problems with my boyfriend, the last days he looked very sad and without motivation, I try to do something new or funny but he just don't want to... That is making me sad too, it seems that I'll never be good enough for him. He is unhappy with me (he said to me yesterday...it's not something crazy that I created in my mind) but he don't want to do nothing to change it (if he wants...I don't know)
He is very reserved but this never had a impact between us, he used to make me surprises and he is always kind with me, I don't know why he is so unhappy... I have to ask for hugs now...
I never cried so much as I did last days, because I want to change this situation but I can't, I don't know if I'm strong enough to deal with that but I'll keep trying.
Sorry about that sad post.

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