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So here's a few pics I took whilst wondering 'round my sleepy town.


Graveyard in the local church, I know it probably sounds a bit morbid but I've always thought this place was really appealing just 'cause it's like an escape from the maelstrom of daily life, a place of serenity and peace which is quite fitting really.


Squirrel sitting on a tree branch in graveyard, I know it's not the best picture but it was pure chance I had my camera out after taking the above picture. It really surprised me considering how bloody cold it was maybe it's 'cause the tree was in the sunlight.


View from the bridge at the trainstation, I know my hometown isn't as isolated as I make it out to be but I look at this view and it really does make it seem like you're miles away from anywhere or anyone for that matter.

In other news it's just dawning on me how weird Christmas is going to be with my brother in Canada, considering my family's lived together for my entire lifetime it's going to be a litttle different it has to be said.

One final thing I've got a date on Sunday and I'm trying my best to avoid a complete neurotic meltdown.

Edit: So here's a breakdown of my week leading up to the above announcement,

Tuesday, pretty much everyone i know at work starts telling me I've got an admirer. I tell them to promptly fuck off 'cause it's just annoying and clearly just a group effort to wind me up.

Wednesday, I find out that apparently my workmates weren't talking utter bollocks for a change, when the girl in question makes herself known to me with the following conversational gambit "How's does your girlfriend put up with you!?" in response to some spontaneous comment I made regarding pink badgers playing the spoons ( I think). I reply "She doesn't have to since I don't have one" she says "D'you want my number then?" with a big smile on her face. I say "Go on then".

Thursday: Day off from work during which I which get an avalance of text messages from the girl in question, along the lines of "Why aren't you at work?!", "You in tommorow?", "Can't wait to see you! ".

Friday, I go to work feeling happy for the first time in bloody ages. I walk into what feels like a press conference as people everywhere start asking me questions about my new girlfriend and how long we've been going out. I tell them we haven't been anywhere yet but I've got something planned for Sunday since neither of us are working.

Saturday, after exchanging so many text messages my inbox got full the night before I go to work even happier than I was before. People ask me why I'm smiling so much 'cause it's a little disturbing .
I tell them I'm looking forward to going out Sunday and I spend a while discussing potential places to go to and things to do with several people. It's pointed out by several of my female workmates that it's about time something went right for me as I deserve it 'cause I'm such a nice guy. I'm genuinely moved by this.

Sunday, I can't sleep I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve night just watching time go by on the clock 'til I can get up. I get up about 8:30 instead of the usual after 11, I need to do all the mundane boring crap I usually do on Sundays going to the local Tesco, blah,blah,blah. It's approximately 4 hours 'til I meet Nikki, my mind is racing with thoughts and images like a TV set with the channels jumping every second. I hear my phone go I've got a text from Nikki it's says "I've got to be somewhere today is it alright if we go out some other time" My phone hits the floor with what seems like a deafening crash and I get a feeling like I've just been punched in my gut. Something my friend said the other day flashes into my mind "Think positive and good things will happen". I'm told where she's got be ,it's a valid reason, I hate myself for still feeling pissed off about the whole affair and feel even worse when I realise there's no way in hell we can pssibly do anything 'til after Christmas at the earliest due to work commitments.