menessxo

so this morning is prolly one of the hardest days of my life... my daughter has been progressively getting more and more unruly... her father disappeared just shortly after my gettin married last year and she has seen him twice since last july.... she has gotten more antisocial, sassy, she started stealing, lying, being sneaky, hoarding any and everything... as a mother it is killing me to see her behave like this and not reflect her being raised better than that... she is mean to almost every one even her baby sister who i noticed has been gettin alot boo-boos i cant account for...( she lured her up a flight of step and then left her there alone... wow... was all i could think as my heart sank when i seen my 20 month old child almost leap down the steps when she seen me coming to rescue her...) then my heart breaks as i have to ground her and take away her tv, video games, inno tab, dvd, ds,and freedoms... i dont believe in beating ur kids so now my last course of action is to let her go live with her dad for the summer and see what the grass is like on the other side... not to mention i doubt any grass grows in a one bedroom apartment with 6 people... i tried talking, i tried yelling, taking away toys and privileges, fun activities we planned, but it dont seem to register... she is hell bent on being defiant and i know i should be proud i raised a self thinking individual but when u cant break some ones desire to self destruct what else can you do but reach out for help from unlikely places... we even tried counseling but she wont talk to any one... im a heartbroken mother and i feel like im trapped between a rock and a hard place and heart break... some one please help me out here... if there was a god he would suck cause this free will shit is killin me... a hard head may make a soft ass but it will also break ur heart in the process...