memry

\rant.

long story short.. two months ago i met the most amazing man in the most unusual place. we would stay up on the phone for hours, picking eachothers brains, asking crazy questions. when we met, it was love at first sight. i couldnt believe my eyes. a few days later we went on our second date. again, everything was perfect. third date we made it official. within two weeks, he popped the "i love you". it took me awhile to say it back, but feelings grew and eventually i said it. i meant it. i felt it. a week later he asked me to move in, i politely declined. things were fucking amazing, we could look in eachothers eyes and feel at home. it was like we didnt have to say a word, and we were entirely entertained.

..as of late. hes been jeckyll and hyde..

telling me to cut my hair. took back the "i love you". saying things were going too fast when all i did was follow his lead. doesnt call, or text unless i text him first.. and sometimes it takes him hours and hours to get back to me. im giving my heart to someone to turned things around in a matter of days.. why?


my heart is fucking breaking.

/rant.