if i were you, id probably leave me too.
today im admitting that ive reached my breaking point. im fucking done. im sick of being so alone all the time. in the past six months allllll... ALLLLL of my friends have moved across the country. ive been dating this guy for a few months now, and things seemed to be going well. he was a college student with a brillant smile and a good heart. a lot of my pain was somehow supressed around him, he seemed to have this radical energy that i fed off of. wellllll. out of nowhere he decides its better if were just friends. it always happens that way. always. i dont know what i possess that scares people away from me, but as soon as you start getting close to me youll instantly want nothing to do with me. i think im a pretty decent human being, everyone makes mistakes. im just a small town girl with big dreams and an even bigger heart. ive been living in the same small town almost my whole life, working from job to job, from boy to boy, here there and everywhere. i bust my ass making $8 an hour so i can afford what... my phone, my truck, car payment, insurance.. ill be living in my mothers house til im fucking thirty i swear to god. im so sick of giving a lot, and getting a little. my parents are both super sick, health deterriorating as we speak, my cousins in jail, my brother wants nothing to do with me. i have no one to rely on. is it so hard to just need someone to love me?
ive spent the past few days in bed, with a bottle of jack. sometimes i dont even want to open my eyes anymore. i cant fucking handle it anymore.
i need OUT.
..and ive never felt so fucking alone.
today im admitting that ive reached my breaking point. im fucking done. im sick of being so alone all the time. in the past six months allllll... ALLLLL of my friends have moved across the country. ive been dating this guy for a few months now, and things seemed to be going well. he was a college student with a brillant smile and a good heart. a lot of my pain was somehow supressed around him, he seemed to have this radical energy that i fed off of. wellllll. out of nowhere he decides its better if were just friends. it always happens that way. always. i dont know what i possess that scares people away from me, but as soon as you start getting close to me youll instantly want nothing to do with me. i think im a pretty decent human being, everyone makes mistakes. im just a small town girl with big dreams and an even bigger heart. ive been living in the same small town almost my whole life, working from job to job, from boy to boy, here there and everywhere. i bust my ass making $8 an hour so i can afford what... my phone, my truck, car payment, insurance.. ill be living in my mothers house til im fucking thirty i swear to god. im so sick of giving a lot, and getting a little. my parents are both super sick, health deterriorating as we speak, my cousins in jail, my brother wants nothing to do with me. i have no one to rely on. is it so hard to just need someone to love me?
ive spent the past few days in bed, with a bottle of jack. sometimes i dont even want to open my eyes anymore. i cant fucking handle it anymore.
i need OUT.
..and ive never felt so fucking alone.
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I've been friend's with you for god know's how long on here, and I never speak up. If you need anyone to talk to, or anything. My info is on my Page. I know how you feel, and it deffinitly Sucks.