memry

i went to the
house of corrections today
to visit ian..
i couldn't get in because i'm on probation
(fuck the system!!)
but his father was there and
delivered a few messages for me..

i guess when his dad said i was in the waiting room
his eyes got all big and he kept standing up to see if he could see me..
and he says "i love you so much and please be at my courtase wednesday at 8:30am"

..maybe i'll get to bring him home.
and make grilled cheese sandwiches and
snuggle all day.. i'm in love with a man whom
no one wants me to be with. i'm also in love with a man
that i am eventually going to marry..
wether he has a felony or not.

here's to you lovebug.