memry

today would have been our three year, 2 month mark.


you're like a drug.
i've been withdrawing
for so long,
but the taste is too sweet
to throw it all away.
you know how hard i'm working
to give you up, but
it brings a smile to your face
to infect my dreams with your
voice every night.

i grew balls.
I GREW BALLS.

I...asked him to the movies valentines day.
to see the departed. he didn't even hesitate saying yes.
it's like hes leaving track marks up and down my arms
and i just can't wait for the itch to come back.

i know in the long run im actually hurting myself more.
"do you like to hurt?"
"i do, i do!"
"..so hurt me."


p.s
valentines day, 5:30.
TATTOO TIME BITCHESSSS<3