memphis_rai

So like I was saying I got out of the hospital Saturday morning. And boy was I loopy form the meds. I think I just came home and crashed for the rest of the day I was so out of it. Then Tuesday I got my staples out and noticed that my scar is healing funny. Like the staples weren't where they were supposed to be so now it looks really fucked up... I now have 6 scars on my stomach. 3 dime sized holes from where the cmaera and lasers went in. The one that goes from my belly button to 3 incehs from my other two scars thats big enough to fit a mans hand into... My c-section scar and the one thats right above it here they had to re-open me cause it got infected. My stomach is a mess. Looks like I've been through a war.
When I first saw it I re-thought this modeling goal of mine. But then I got to thinking about it and everyone is beautiful in there own right. In there own way... Just because a handful of people might think it's gross and turn me down it doesn't mean everyone will... Someone will find it beautiful besides me and I'll be able to model somewhere.... Oh and I'm finally off the vicatin.. That shit fuckes me up. I get so tired I can't really do anything even moving is a big task for me... Well that's enough of an update for now... I'm gonna add soem new pictures so take a look. They are just head shots cause I don't have anyone to take my pictures and I haven't figured out the angles yet to be able to do it myslef...