memelynch

Well that was an update on my mental state. this is a brief update on physical.
SO i just went to an internist because i've been having continued pain far after the healing time of surgery. And a hernia was ruled out. she doesn't think it's infection because i would look worse but she did blood work (new track mark) and we will know in the weak. leading cause is most likely: SCAR TISSUE>
sucks. but maybe it's nothing. just healing.
The really weird thing was last monday i blacked out: my head throbbed and my chest tightened, and then boom the next thing i know i had fallen into a clothing wrack. So she's worried about that too. as am i.
the tightness of my chest just lightened but i feel so weak. Which adds to my mental state because i want to be able to go out and play with beautiful spring. but no. i feel like i am going to pass out all the time. it makes me sad.
In further news, I am on the south beach diet to eat more. don't ask. that's it.