Hey everyone!!! Hope you're all doing great ✨
On my last post here I mentioned I was changing things in my life and I'd tell you later. Well, now's the time. I already made a longer post on my OF, but here I'll try to keep as short as possible.
The thing is: I'll stop shooting new sets - mainly for my other pages (which lately became just OnlyFans, honestly). I intend to shoot one thing or another for Suicide Girls, still, I've actually had a couple ideas for some time now, and may shoot soon, but that's all, for SG only.
Long story short, I haven't been feeling as passionate about shooting and posting, and I feel like I'm posting content on my pages more for obligation, and some time ago it used to be because I actually LOVED my sets and wanted to show it to everyone. Now don't feel as comfortable when shooting, feel like I'm interacting because I have to, I see successful models who I met "at the beginning of their modeling career" and I feel I failed (even though I KNOW it's because I haven't been giving modeling much attention and they totally work their ass off (literally? haha) for what they get, but our brain is stupid and I can't help having some feelings.
I've distanced myself from social media, stopped talking to many people with whom I had created cool connections with, and little by little I started to suppress the model side of me and all she has achieved and created.
So that's it for now, I'll distance myself from my pages and will probably be mostly here on SG. I intend to keep my OF page, mostly so people can purchase my sets (they still exist and I still think I created good sets, so they will be there for people who want it), but for now new sets will be here for SG (and maybe I'll post some behind the scenes on OF if it happens, I need to post at least once every 90 days so my account there won't be disabled, so it'll be something).
I need my mental health back, I want to feel nice about me again, I want to be able to pose for sets again because it's joyful to me, not because I'm feeling I have to, and want to feel good about my poses and what I see as a result. And for all of this to be achieved, I need this break. I know this will have a financial impact and I'll have to make up for it, but my mind is more important than that now.
Still, thank you for always being so supportive, I really cannot complain about you guys, especially those who are always interacting with me here, you're always lovely 🥹
I'll leave this with this pic from my last shot set, with the lovely @ronaldo77 💙
Ps: if you want to reach out to my DMs here, it's no problem! I've been taking long to answer to people (I mean, even those really close to me - anxiety is more than knocking on my door), but I swear I'll try and reply any time I'm feeling more comfortable and less anxious 💙
