i didn't sleep last night. it had to do with a person stumbling into my house at 230am and just. crashing on the couch. without a word. and me. knee-deep is jules-things. sorting. i was terribly pissed. and you'd think. that after throwing things. smashing things with a hammer. and blatantly saying. you.are.not.welcome. they'd get the hint.
no.
no, they didn't.
any way. that's not...
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no, they didn't.
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spooky520:
sorry about your great aunt. 
melvina:
thanks. me too. but i'm more sorry about my sister. heh. i'll live. i just hate that room, that one room. meh.
goat calls me randomly throughout the week, as i call him. randomly. throughout the week.
and i love it.
it strikes a chord some where. a deep G note. with a D in the background.
i realize i make no sense. it was just a thought.
and i love it.
it strikes a chord some where. a deep G note. with a D in the background.
i realize i make no sense. it was just a thought.
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vonbaxter:
Hope you have a great Thanksgiving! 
melvina:
oh lord i hate holidays but you know what. THANK YOU FOR SAYING SO. you too. really. <3
we have a new resident at work. can you say. pure hell?
yeah. i can.
i've had drawers thrown at me today from a closet and the fuck scratched out of my arm. and she's not done. so good of them to over-populate the home. she's also managed to bite a staff in the head and choke them. heh. fun.fun.
i'm a little annoyed. or...
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yeah. i can.
i've had drawers thrown at me today from a closet and the fuck scratched out of my arm. and she's not done. so good of them to over-populate the home. she's also managed to bite a staff in the head and choke them. heh. fun.fun.
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melvina:
i <3 against me! a great deal.
when i first got my vertical bridge done, i had it pierced with a surface bar, which is. fairly normal. but the rises were too long and i hit every thing on fucknig earth with my forehead it seemed so i switched to tygon. it was all right for a while but never actually allowed my vertical to.. heal as much as a surface piercing can heal, which isn't much but eh. finally, i went to get a custom surface bar and turns out my vertical has rejected a little, so it's too small (height) to get a custom s.bar and i ended up with. a curved barbell. and it's been the best damn thing on earth.
my vertical is bound to reject completely sooner or later but for the last.. hmmmm... almost 2 years? maybe more. it has been just fine. it takes hella work to keep it happy, though. it's not a piercing for the lazy because it can be a real bitch. however. it is my favorite. <3
and. don't care how you got here but feel free to come back. i love your hawk. mine is not nearly as neato.
when i first got my vertical bridge done, i had it pierced with a surface bar, which is. fairly normal. but the rises were too long and i hit every thing on fucknig earth with my forehead it seemed so i switched to tygon. it was all right for a while but never actually allowed my vertical to.. heal as much as a surface piercing can heal, which isn't much but eh. finally, i went to get a custom surface bar and turns out my vertical has rejected a little, so it's too small (height) to get a custom s.bar and i ended up with. a curved barbell. and it's been the best damn thing on earth.
my vertical is bound to reject completely sooner or later but for the last.. hmmmm... almost 2 years? maybe more. it has been just fine. it takes hella work to keep it happy, though. it's not a piercing for the lazy because it can be a real bitch. however. it is my favorite. <3
and. don't care how you got here but feel free to come back. i love your hawk. mine is not nearly as neato.
melvina:
i forgot to say that, yeah. i keep all 17 of my piercings.. wait, i guess it could bne 18, i don't remember but any way- i keep them all in at work. i work at an MHMR facility and deal with a lot of violent behavior and have never had one ripped out until today. HAH- TODAY.
they sent us a new client the day before yesterday and she attempted to rip all the earrings out of my ears today. fun. i'm going to try to get plugs tomorrow if i can find some money!
they sent us a new client the day before yesterday and she attempted to rip all the earrings out of my ears today. fun. i'm going to try to get plugs tomorrow if i can find some money!
i hate getting up in the morning. and really. i don't suppose it's really all that morning- but it was 11:45 when i hauled my ass out of bed after very little sleep so that i can have a bath and some tea before i go to the doctor.
UGH.
i.hate.doctors.
so here we go. without coffee and medication. i'll be lucky if i don't...
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UGH.
i.hate.doctors.
so here we go. without coffee and medication. i'll be lucky if i don't...
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hyenahell:
uhg. camera charging, i'll get you the pic soon. (couldn't find it on mine or rhys' computer). so. retake. i have to work for andrew tomorrow night. day before thanksgiving. i am going to the track- the race track, you know, horses and all- for opening day on thanksgiving. to hell with the turkey. the only turkey i'll be putting in my mouth is that of the wild variety. um. bourbon. yes. god. i wish i was home instead of here. right. now. i hate my fucking job sometimes. grrr. more coherrent thoughts later. but. much love to you, my pretty.
-beck.
-beck.
melvina:
take your time, i'm sure you'll have a spare moment today to get the camera working to get that pic. no.problem.k?
i wishi were going to the race track too! are you going with juan or some one else? sounds a grand way to spend the fucking holiday. guess where i'll be?
oh yeah. that's right. tardwood. i'll be working. yippee. but seeing i don't so holidays any way.. who cares?! (oh. and overtime helps.)
any way. sitting here waiting to go to work with white tea and oatmeal. just out of the bath. smoking. i don't want to go to work. call me today randomly if you get bored. madmadmadmadlove. <3mel
i wishi were going to the race track too! are you going with juan or some one else? sounds a grand way to spend the fucking holiday. guess where i'll be?
oh yeah. that's right. tardwood. i'll be working. yippee. but seeing i don't so holidays any way.. who cares?! (oh. and overtime helps.)
any way. sitting here waiting to go to work with white tea and oatmeal. just out of the bath. smoking. i don't want to go to work. call me today randomly if you get bored. madmadmadmadlove. <3mel
beck. i've really been meaning to get into bed before 6 in the morning. and then get up before 5pm. before the sun sets.
have i?
NO.
i dreamed you and i and goat took people on buses to a strange part in the middle of 4 highways and we had to make turns in places there weren't any.. we left the buses and found...
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have i?
NO.
i dreamed you and i and goat took people on buses to a strange part in the middle of 4 highways and we had to make turns in places there weren't any.. we left the buses and found...
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i wish my cell phone would not make my monitor go batty.
however. i am off work and i just bought tickets to dallas from the 20th-28th, so. nothing to complain about. promise.
i have nothing to say other than... i hope i can scrounge enough cash to get myself around and possibly modified during december. i'll need it. you'll see- other than that. i'm...
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however. i am off work and i just bought tickets to dallas from the 20th-28th, so. nothing to complain about. promise.
i have nothing to say other than... i hope i can scrounge enough cash to get myself around and possibly modified during december. i'll need it. you'll see- other than that. i'm...
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bah.
tried to call numerous times today beck. i will kill the phone and send you a new one. either that, or you've just been busy and i've been bored and wanting.
meh.
but hey. i wanted to ask a favor- if. if.if.if. you have the mentality, time, etc. to sit down and work on my chest piece for a bit. because. i wanted to...
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tried to call numerous times today beck. i will kill the phone and send you a new one. either that, or you've just been busy and i've been bored and wanting.
meh.
but hey. i wanted to ask a favor- if. if.if.if. you have the mentality, time, etc. to sit down and work on my chest piece for a bit. because. i wanted to...
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melvina:
s'ok about yesterday, it was weird all about.
i didn't sleep till round 7 yesterday either, or today. and now. i'm sitting here. with blackness under my eyes. and a shadow against the wall behind me. and it leaves me feeling. some what. creepy.
perhaps, perhaps you can get home for thanksgiving, eh? surely so. your parents will come get you. and you can always fly into LEX and i can come get you, my car MIGHT make it that far... i'd be quite willing to try. talk it out. it might be easier for both us of to be in the same locale, you are right so. let me know if i need to be screaming at andrew.
sigh. i swear. i am going to have to send you a coffee pot. i'll be looking.
let me know about the tats babe- i understand the not wanting to leave the house thing. i feel that way too often these days except leaving the house is the only relief i get some times.. haha... so sad. i feel better when i am NOT in my own home..
ok.. rant over.. sorry. tired. fed up. waiting for you. oh. and pining. pining. a lot. <3
i didn't sleep till round 7 yesterday either, or today. and now. i'm sitting here. with blackness under my eyes. and a shadow against the wall behind me. and it leaves me feeling. some what. creepy.
perhaps, perhaps you can get home for thanksgiving, eh? surely so. your parents will come get you. and you can always fly into LEX and i can come get you, my car MIGHT make it that far... i'd be quite willing to try.
talk it out. it might be easier for both us of to be in the same locale, you are right so. let me know if i need to be screaming at andrew.
sigh. i swear. i am going to have to send you a coffee pot. i'll be looking.
let me know about the tats babe- i understand the not wanting to leave the house thing. i feel that way too often these days except leaving the house is the only relief i get some times.. haha... so sad. i feel better when i am NOT in my own home..
ok.. rant over.. sorry. tired. fed up. waiting for you. oh. and pining. pining. a lot. <3
melvina:
hey beck?- i don't remember if you work tonight but. i can't find the pic you sent of the very last sketch of my chest piece. it was. all of it together but not REAL detailed. and i wanted to show the artist i'd like to do it. to get an eta on time and price. etc. just. in case. it gives me some thing to do- because. i'm home for break from work and it's been quite a day and really, it's been quite. a month. i'm more than just a little mad and it might help to take my meds again but really.
i don't want to.
hrm. more later. back to the grind and thinking of you. <3
i don't want to.
hrm. more later. back to the grind and thinking of you. <3
so i told you that i talked to goat and that there might be critters about, that escaped when the mirror broke or.. whenever. thing is. they're there. so beck. if you get an image together, send it to me. i want to know who we're dealing with, by face.
on a lighter note- there being no real world marathon... i spoke to my supervisor...
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on a lighter note- there being no real world marathon... i spoke to my supervisor...
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hyenahell:
bah. can't sleep. been watching "the wire", 1st season dvd's. (rhys = addicted. me = ammused.) so i had a bunch of odd dreams pertaining to that. mostly with me and rhys in them. i think we were selling drugs. not sure. meh. the tone was the same. danger, will robinson; danger. going to the store to pick up some things for another ritual. did one today and it went well. got some of my strength back, at least. i'll let you know how it goes tomorrow. call me before you go to work, i should still be up. i'm going to try to take a nap this afternoon, and then i'm going to a show tonight. but. do call. hope all is well on your end. love you muchly. very muchly.
-beck. <3
-beck. <3
melvina:
rawr, would have updated last night except for a blinking cable light and then i just got tired of messing with it-
and you know. i haven't been able to sleep lately, either. not that i was ever very good at it, but even with help.. heh... i still can't manage it quite well. and then, once i am there, there are the dreams. so. fucked from either end, eh? just.lovely.
i watch the wire here at the house and think.of.you.and.rhys. and the dogs.
there are strange noises coming from the front of my building. i should call you now before i head into work. more later. madlove.<3
and you know. i haven't been able to sleep lately, either. not that i was ever very good at it, but even with help.. heh... i still can't manage it quite well. and then, once i am there, there are the dreams. so. fucked from either end, eh? just.lovely.
i watch the wire here at the house and think.of.you.and.rhys. and the dogs.
there are strange noises coming from the front of my building. i should call you now before i head into work. more later. madlove.<3
ugh. beck. i'm not sure if i'm just still disgusted or just more so than before.
i'm just out of the bath. i'm so bored, i suppose i'll just try and sleep even thogh i'm not tired, only. pissy.
the little town-folk-fuckos that i had to track down a few months ago that took some of jules' things from her old apartment found out where...
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i'm just out of the bath. i'm so bored, i suppose i'll just try and sleep even thogh i'm not tired, only. pissy.
the little town-folk-fuckos that i had to track down a few months ago that took some of jules' things from her old apartment found out where...
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melvina:
i forgot to tell you that i dreamed someone had jules. and had me by the neck, by the locket.
beck, is it just this time of year?
beck, is it just this time of year?
hyenahell:
gods. more dreams last night. and i can't get through on your phone. but. i thought of that. last night, i was riding my bike around. because i tried to do. some things. but didn't have the strength to hold on. and i thought. or it came to me, rather. that night at goat's house, when the mirror broke. maybe something came through. or... i don't know, but mel. it's something. the time of year, yes, but... it's something more than that. and in the dreams, i can't find her. but last night that man. or thing. was there. and at the end, we were holding her coat, and it had bullet holes through it. i need to talk to you. i'll be home all day. i can't get through on your phone, for some reason. but it's serious. there's... something. i don't know. something. but call. and be careful. it's getting stronger.
love. beck.
love. beck.
this week as finally ended. not like one day off in between another week is much but eh. i'll take what i can get.
and every thing is getting on my nerves and i just can't sit still or be touched or really tolerate any form of conversation... well. except with you. and with the Upstairs. They're always entertaining and. so are you. hah. i've...
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and every thing is getting on my nerves and i just can't sit still or be touched or really tolerate any form of conversation... well. except with you. and with the Upstairs. They're always entertaining and. so are you. hah. i've...
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hyenahell:
just woke up. again. weird dreams. i think someone is trying to trick us. be careful. there was a man with a hole in his cheek. it looked like a pock, a little dip, but it spiraled deep and it was a hole. he kept being in my dreams. except i didn't see him until the last one. but. it was odd. i can't explain it. but be careful. he was after us. i beat him in the dream. but then i had another one, and he was after you. and i woke up, before i could warn you. be careful. something is going on.
melvina:
i dreamed of it when i was there, after seeing goat. betrayal, deep. makes me wonder. i'll keep an eye out. i've been having the odd sort of dreams as well- nightmares. meh. let me know if you see any thing else and. like wise. <3