i am. angry. really. truly. angry. and more than that. sad.
NOLA is gone and i hate sitting up here doing nothing. i have friends who are looking into the red cross to see if they'd ship us down there to do things. ANY.THING. i can't watch the news any more either, beck. i get too violent, i get too mean. i rant and rave...
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NOLA is gone and i hate sitting up here doing nothing. i have friends who are looking into the red cross to see if they'd ship us down there to do things. ANY.THING. i can't watch the news any more either, beck. i get too violent, i get too mean. i rant and rave...
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off line till i'm done moving and have a competent cable guy to give me my fucking high speed. gr.
love.
love.
nikonphoto80:
i hope your not gone to long. 
nocturnal_light:
I hope you're staying in this area? And...a good cable guy is hard to find. 
there are ants in my chai.
i'm not sure where they came from. i mean. there ARE ants around the sink but i have killed them with terro or whatever. i love to watch them hover, feed. and die. it's a grand little ant farm but i really must protest about the being-in-the-tea-thing.
i woke up at 8am. after few hours of sleep. i have...
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i'm not sure where they came from. i mean. there ARE ants around the sink but i have killed them with terro or whatever. i love to watch them hover, feed. and die. it's a grand little ant farm but i really must protest about the being-in-the-tea-thing.
i woke up at 8am. after few hours of sleep. i have...
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melvina:
because the people here are stupid, and way behind and probably have outdated browsers that frames would look all fucked up on or whatever. it would confuse the masses.
and it makes me angry because I FUCKING WANT TO USE FRAMES. grr.
sigh. meh.
and it makes me angry because I FUCKING WANT TO USE FRAMES. grr.
sigh. meh.
hyenahell:
you are not the code. heh. that is funny. kind of. because lately i have dreams that i am a number/numbers... that everything is a number. or that everything has a value which is a number, and i have no value because i can't understand the numbers, like it is a language i can't use. and i disappear because i have no value assigned to me, or i do have a value, but i am less than the value, so i disappear. actually, they might not be dreams. they could be panic attacks, or breaks. but it is in my head. and i scares me, because that sounds a bit schizophrenic.
call me when you get a chance. love. mad. love. <3 beck.
call me when you get a chance. love. mad. love. <3 beck.
my whole body is tired. i can do crossword puzzles in bad lighting, with a pen and no problem but i can barely think.
i have a lot on the brain. mainly, monsters.
i don't know what to do with myself. being unemployed presents opportunity for being social but being social for me is difficult and i loathe change and therefore. cannot take the present...
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i have a lot on the brain. mainly, monsters.
i don't know what to do with myself. being unemployed presents opportunity for being social but being social for me is difficult and i loathe change and therefore. cannot take the present...
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melvina:
i KNOW- thing is. i just got an interview. which have a good chance of getting. which means employment. hence money. which goes into the gas tank which leads. directly to you. mu ha! <3
derelict:
good luck on the interview!
i am still unemployed.
i really. really. need to do some thing about that shit.
help me.
also: i should have things like these. because. JUST FUCKING BECAUSE! (oh. jules would say. BECAUSE I ROCK. oh yes.)
ONE
TWO
THREE!
also- possibly because i am obsessed. but ONE DAY. ONE DAY- i'll have a job again. i just hope they can give me a small...
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i really. really. need to do some thing about that shit.
help me.
also: i should have things like these. because. JUST FUCKING BECAUSE! (oh. jules would say. BECAUSE I ROCK. oh yes.)
ONE
TWO
THREE!
also- possibly because i am obsessed. but ONE DAY. ONE DAY- i'll have a job again. i just hope they can give me a small...
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melvina:
BWAHAHAhahahaaa... serious.faces.
that will go on forever.
i have still had no sign of a job. it is very stressful.
i also want another ring on my left side, as i took the right nostril out for mother's day and all. (she did not specify that i could not get a hole on the OTHER side.. mu ha haa...)
i also notice that no one hires weird looking chicks. i mean beck. in NOLA? that is strange. here also, though. i know EVERY job listing in EVERY available job bank and website that EXISTS in somerset RIGHT NOW.
and it's nothing. i mean. really. like. 12 jobs, beck. TWELVE.
sigh. i. hate. every thing. also- and. i miss you too, manicly and madly as well.
more later. will call. <3mel
that will go on forever.
i have still had no sign of a job. it is very stressful.
i also want another ring on my left side, as i took the right nostril out for mother's day and all. (she did not specify that i could not get a hole on the OTHER side.. mu ha haa...)
i also notice that no one hires weird looking chicks. i mean beck. in NOLA? that is strange. here also, though. i know EVERY job listing in EVERY available job bank and website that EXISTS in somerset RIGHT NOW.
and it's nothing. i mean. really. like. 12 jobs, beck. TWELVE.
sigh. i. hate. every thing. also- and. i miss you too, manicly and madly as well.
more later. will call. <3mel
melvina:
OH! and beck. you spelled "terribly": correctly but remember. weird is WEIRD and not wierd.
WE are the wyrds. also- more pictures later today. OF JULES. and us and things. <3
WE are the wyrds. also- more pictures later today. OF JULES. and us and things. <3
it's cold in this house. as usual. but i am a cave-rat. and that is all i seem to be.
as we all know. i am jobless. but. since we all know this. i won't bitch too much.
i managed to get out of my valium coma today and take pallu on her first walk. she did well. and was funny. i think she's retarded...
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as we all know. i am jobless. but. since we all know this. i won't bitch too much.
i managed to get out of my valium coma today and take pallu on her first walk. she did well. and was funny. i think she's retarded...
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melvina:
thank ya 
i like it too and will get a better pic when it's healed! <3
i like it too and will get a better pic when it's healed! <3
hyenahell:
you know what i am in love with? spaghetti squash. i will tell you all about it next time we talk on the phone. and send you a low-fat recipe for spaghetti squash with tomato sauce (if you want it), which i made tonight, and is fucking delicious. that is all.
i failed my drug test. not because i smoked any pot. but because i was in the room with people who did.
i lost the job offer.
and now i'm unemployed, manic. and completely fucked.
i need to get out of here.
i lost the job offer.
and now i'm unemployed, manic. and completely fucked.
i need to get out of here.
nikonphoto80:
Im so sorry, I am very depressed and I dont have a job so I know where youre coming from; if you need anything let me know.
melvina:
same here. i don't know what i'm going to do damn it. meh. just a big, fat. MEH.
up early after only 3 hours sleep. i was up late coding a page for bodean in exchange for tattoo work.
drinking tea and having the first cigarette of the morning. i'm cold. and the house is quiet except for a few cars outside.
i'm tired and i feel like shit.
i want to start work to make some money. maybe it's monday. maybe not....
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drinking tea and having the first cigarette of the morning. i'm cold. and the house is quiet except for a few cars outside.
i'm tired and i feel like shit.
i want to start work to make some money. maybe it's monday. maybe not....
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nikonphoto80:
I know that felling of being empty.
I hope the tattoo terns out good.
I hope I get a job soon; Im so stressed about it.
I hope the tattoo terns out good.
I hope I get a job soon; Im so stressed about it.
beck.
had one of those weird middle school dreams this morning.
jules and i were in ms. birch's class and she was teaching english but we were watching 'better off dead' and having ice cream and tea in a bottle or some thing and i found all the original super hero figures at the bottom of my bottle. wonder woman, aqua man, green lantern and...
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had one of those weird middle school dreams this morning.
jules and i were in ms. birch's class and she was teaching english but we were watching 'better off dead' and having ice cream and tea in a bottle or some thing and i found all the original super hero figures at the bottom of my bottle. wonder woman, aqua man, green lantern and...
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nikonphoto80:
Im sorry.
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melvina:
yay, no dying and no, there are no plaid high waters at this wal mart. i am sad because i need them. 
i got my official letter today. mad mad paper work. i am now an OFFICIAL employee of SAIC and i make several thousand dollars more than those fucks at oakwood, MU HAHHAHAHAHAHA!
i got my official letter today. mad mad paper work. i am now an OFFICIAL employee of SAIC and i make several thousand dollars more than those fucks at oakwood, MU HAHHAHAHAHAHA!
melvina:
oh. that is. if i pass the drug test, meds and all. meh. and. YOU LOOK SO FUCKING HOT. just. you know. sayin'.
and jimmy is james hancock who died last week, i believe. the cause of death is still unsure.. at least rumors have it many ways. meh. meh.
and jimmy is james hancock who died last week, i believe. the cause of death is still unsure.. at least rumors have it many ways. meh. meh.