melvina

i am. angry. really. truly. angry. and more than that. sad.

NOLA is gone and i hate sitting up here doing nothing. i have friends who are looking into the red cross to see if they'd ship us down there to do things. ANY.THING. i can't watch the news any more either, beck. i get too violent, i get too mean. i rant and rave to the TV as if it were a person or a crowd because this could have been prevented and it wasn't and incompetence is just.

beyond my comprehension. this whole thing is.

not to mention that jimmy is dead and i didn't even know. and that deron is dead, my baby deron at tardville and i hate, hate, hate the people who let him die. the circumstances cannot be discussed really but i am thinking about going back there to stay with them for a while. to protect and take care of my babies.

every one is dying and i sit here. doing nothing. because i do not know what to do.

meh. meh, to it all. and beck. are you coming home for a while? any time?