melvina

did i mention i'm hearing strange things?

i mean, look. here it is 3:30 some thing in the afternoon and i'm al.ready.drinking. not to mention. out.of.my.mind.

i thought i lit a cigarette but when i look over to my right for it. it is not there. and then i wonder if i'll catch this place on fire because i fucked up and blanked out. and then i realize. i'd probably be the first thing burning and since i'm pretty sure i'm not.

i think we're ok.

i've unpacked jules' room. i put the chest i bought from the dead guy in there. i have most of her things ready to be put in after i've cleaned the trunk up. some people may find this some what depressing, but- you must understand.

with the four rocking chairs in that room, semi-circled in the middle, facing the window. the cremetory vent and the street. this is where jules and johnna and beck and i will sit to DISCUSS. the meager.obits.

very important.

otherwise. feeling more than a bit lonely but some what enjoying it. it provides. time. and inspiration. and... ghosts. i love it when it's quiet.

i'm so tired now. so i think i'll sit down... and i will before my eyes roll back and i drop the cigarette i just lit. i swear.

pinch me.