did i mention i'm hearing strange things?
i mean, look. here it is 3:30 some thing in the afternoon and i'm al.ready.drinking. not to mention. out.of.my.mind.
i thought i lit a cigarette but when i look over to my right for it. it is not there. and then i wonder if i'll catch this place on fire because i fucked up and blanked out. and then i realize. i'd probably be the first thing burning and since i'm pretty sure i'm not.
i think we're ok.
i've unpacked jules' room. i put the chest i bought from the dead guy in there. i have most of her things ready to be put in after i've cleaned the trunk up. some people may find this some what depressing, but- you must understand.
with the four rocking chairs in that room, semi-circled in the middle, facing the window. the cremetory vent and the street. this is where jules and johnna and beck and i will sit to DISCUSS. the meager.obits.
very important.
otherwise. feeling more than a bit lonely but some what enjoying it. it provides. time. and inspiration. and... ghosts. i love it when it's quiet.
i'm so tired now. so i think i'll sit down... and i will before my eyes roll back and i drop the cigarette i just lit. i swear.
pinch me.
i mean, look. here it is 3:30 some thing in the afternoon and i'm al.ready.drinking. not to mention. out.of.my.mind.
i thought i lit a cigarette but when i look over to my right for it. it is not there. and then i wonder if i'll catch this place on fire because i fucked up and blanked out. and then i realize. i'd probably be the first thing burning and since i'm pretty sure i'm not.
i think we're ok.
i've unpacked jules' room. i put the chest i bought from the dead guy in there. i have most of her things ready to be put in after i've cleaned the trunk up. some people may find this some what depressing, but- you must understand.
with the four rocking chairs in that room, semi-circled in the middle, facing the window. the cremetory vent and the street. this is where jules and johnna and beck and i will sit to DISCUSS. the meager.obits.
very important.
otherwise. feeling more than a bit lonely but some what enjoying it. it provides. time. and inspiration. and... ghosts. i love it when it's quiet.
i'm so tired now. so i think i'll sit down... and i will before my eyes roll back and i drop the cigarette i just lit. i swear.
pinch me.
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
and yet. it still hurts. I feel for you and your sister. I hope you have many lovely nights waiting for the whispers I have already tried to forget in my own home.
i do not find it strange. i find it intriging. more confident than you know. and loving.
you to will meet again in person(not just spirit) one day.
-tash