melvina

i barely know what my own name is.

my brain is threatening to bust it's way out of the front of my skull. it pounds.

but it's raining outside and i was stiff from sitting at an odd, non-offensive angle at sean's and i stood in my parking lot and looked up and stood in that parking lot and let.it.fall.

the lights were too bright and the sky too black and the clouds too there but i took a breath and prayed lilke fuck for some.sort.of.relief.

i've had a bad day. i feel psychotic and it was my day off. i need to medicate. but if it makes me crazy. you guys.

you let me know.

and beck. please come home. some time soon. your fellow grace needs you.

p.s. hi. everrybody. i'm sorry. i really am. it's just. the madness with leak unto you. and i. i am just. going through an. adjustment. smile.