melvina

i danced with dee till dawn in the yard, under a half.moon.and.stars.

i punk-rocked-it-around-the-couch. in the living room. and shook like i wouldn't in public, or maybe like i should- and the dancing made me dizzy and We danced a dance for jules.

the waltz.

i woke up with a hang over from too much whiskey and gust- and.went.from.bed.to.bath.to.work.

terrible things We must do for our survival. i am bitchy and tired and crossword puzzles are starting to make my eyes cross because i've stared at.so.many.

you can only do so much in a home just sitting, waiting to have your ass kicked. or. the attempt of having one's ass kicked.

i am bored. but. i have tomorrow off, and on this day i will do many things.


doctor. seeing about college. and a part time job. i must.have.my.HAIR.CUT or i shall surely.die. if i can manage that and other random. do.nothing.things. that i don't want to do but have to.

wah. mel. just. WAH.

why don't you just bitch a little more, huh?

however. there is a highlight to this story. it being. that i finally have a weekend off and on that saturday, i am hoping to go to lexington (heads up, Justin) to visit with maureen in her new group home and put together a package with cookies and coloring books and things.

so. i look forward to that. because. maureen. and i. grew our skin back together. in a manner. of speaking. some unbecoming of ladies. eating.dressing.showering.toileting.con.ver.sa.tion. with crosswords, no less and an inane amount of personal dark humor and mad equality, on both our parts- but always with our communication that only we had. i hope that she is happy to see me. because i will most certainly be happy to see her.

otherwise. i need some motivation. so. lay it on me, motherfuckers. i am one.manic-low.bitch.

oh. wah. GOD. excuse me. really. just do.

maybe after sleep.



also: and She comes. right through the pores of my skin- an uncomfortable trans.ition. D. is poison and enticing as any.thing.Else.

only the Hyena knows, now.