melvina

i've been dreaming hard this week. this morning, i will tell you what i saw. mainly for beck, because. she knows.

jules and i. and. hyena. we were in a mental institution. (big.surprise.) it was grand to be together but the place was overwhelming. and throughout the place, there were our tards. (affectionately referred to as, people. don't get offended. i love 'em.) and we kept trying to escape....

and the nurses were the burly dyke type with white uniforms and needles and some times.. they would catch us, running down the stairs, trying all the doors. finding passages that no one knew... we knew.

and some times we got seperated. but always. we would find one another and run. the last thing i remember is seeing swizal in a sun room of sorts, with a bright smile and i left him with the large package of pictures i carry around (with pictures of jules and i in them.. beck too.) and the orange girlscout shirt from when we were all the strangest brownie troop ever. troop 123.

he was looking through them when we ran through the doors of the sun room and out into a parking lot that went round and round.

haha.. i even think he said what all the men in my dreams say when they see jules and i. that she was prettier, which i know. but at the time, i was not offended. nor am i now. i remember agreeing and as we ran into the parking lot. he was in a driveway that led up to a cottage, sitting in a louge chair, smiling still.

my father's blue truck was parked and he was waiting on us.

then it connected to other dreams that i've had and it seems to make sense but doesn't. beck and i got away, as did jules. but she disappeared as soon as we made it out.

i am so tired. but i loved seeing her again. seeing beck again. and yeah. justin, it was entertaining for you to be our grinning cheshire cat, hinting the way out.

i have to work.