i've been waking up since about 6am and didn't get to bed much before that. i finally gave up. i've been in the tub trying to breathe underwater.
and let me tell you. it could work. really. a good means to an end.
heh. any way. i had nightmares or maybe it was some thing more like, bad memories. meh. it's cold in the house. and jules, my fish and not my sister, killed herself last night by sticking herself between the oxygen thingie in the tank and the plant the tank-people so nicely included. we did try to re-circulate the water into her gills but no use. jack is all alone in his tank now. i should get him another friend but this time i know better than to name it after my dead sister. how sad.
the tea kettle is whistling and it startled me which means i forgot i'd put it on the stove which also means. i have great potential to burn down my house some day because i can't quite get my head screwed on the right way.
i can't think straight and i have a feeling that no one around me really knows what it is to walk about day by day and.feel.nothing. truly nothing. not a feeling or emotion in the picture.
i doubt it. i do. for the most part. not sure if i really want to ever fix it either. not right now.
goat has my room in the works. the portal is in there, the one that jules broke, the one that let her out.
i'm planning.
and let me tell you. it could work. really. a good means to an end.
heh. any way. i had nightmares or maybe it was some thing more like, bad memories. meh. it's cold in the house. and jules, my fish and not my sister, killed herself last night by sticking herself between the oxygen thingie in the tank and the plant the tank-people so nicely included. we did try to re-circulate the water into her gills but no use. jack is all alone in his tank now. i should get him another friend but this time i know better than to name it after my dead sister. how sad.
the tea kettle is whistling and it startled me which means i forgot i'd put it on the stove which also means. i have great potential to burn down my house some day because i can't quite get my head screwed on the right way.
i can't think straight and i have a feeling that no one around me really knows what it is to walk about day by day and.feel.nothing. truly nothing. not a feeling or emotion in the picture.
i doubt it. i do. for the most part. not sure if i really want to ever fix it either. not right now.
goat has my room in the works. the portal is in there, the one that jules broke, the one that let her out.
i'm planning.
hyenahell:
o.k. i am off for sure the weekend of x-mas. but i might have to work the 20th, which means i couldn't leave until the 21st. or. 22nd... but, i have more. negotiating to do. later tonight. before work. ug. wish me luck. i'm going to try to get new years weekend off, which is looking good. so that means i'd be home for a little more than 2 weeks. i'll try for longer, if i can. but. we'll see. i think it would be asking a bit too much. meh. anyway. i'll talk to you when i hear more.
melvina:
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. that's all i have to say at 9am after being told i could have cancer. yeah. i'm awake now but at least i have SOME good news. (don't freak, beck. i have a biopsy on thursday.) i'm doing enough for the both of us.