melvina

i didn't sleep last night. it had to do with a person stumbling into my house at 230am and just. crashing on the couch. without a word. and me. knee-deep is jules-things. sorting. i was terribly pissed. and you'd think. that after throwing things. smashing things with a hammer. and blatantly saying. you.are.not.welcome. they'd get the hint.
no.
no, they didn't.
any way. that's not important. so i had a bad night. meh. fuck it. today. i went out to see jules. she has lots of flowers. reds, dark pinks, light pinks, oranges.. blacks. purples. lovely things. heh. it's close to december. can't you tell? (it's driving me crazy.)
so i went to the house and sat around with my parents. scavenged for computer parts i have randomly stashed about the upstairs. promised to shoot with dad next weekend and left. i sat on jules and talked to goat for a while. love it. and went to the funeral home.
my great aunt died. hazel was grand. she was 87. she looked perfect in pink and hardly her age. but. she was in the same room jules was in. in december. back then. and i thought i could make it in. and out. however, no.
i was already crying before i hit the door.
any way. she looked nice, as i said. and i went home. and i've been working on the two computers in my floor. pains. dinosaurs. i really.hate.old.computers. but. i'm donating parts. lots of parts. maybe i can make some thing decent out of them for my co-workers.
but i still have a headache.
and beck. did you go to the track today?