melvin_

stopid fuckin ex relationship shite comin back to haunt me!
bein threatened that if you dont act a certain way or meet thier standards . . . . thier cheat on u is so fucked up i can't believe i put up with it
its so fun when ur niave insecure and paranoid!
things keep happenin that bring back thoughts and i almost react but hold myself back and realise it's in the past!
but just coz its the past does mean its over in ur head!
the way i was wasn't me . . . . i hate them for manipulatin and controlin me but i never stopped them in time, got used to it

i'm tryin so hard to prove to myself that i can be who i want to be . . . . wotever that is?!

'So keep on pretending
Our heaven is worth the waiting
Keep on pretending it's alright
So keep on pretending
It will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
It's alright'

HIM kicks arse!

*bite*