okay so ex lady told me how i should live for 2day and all the stuff bout dont worry bout stopid ickle things . . . . . but i'll never change. all the bad shit that happened between us gone out the window . . . . . she has cancer so nothin matters any more sounds fucked up but i guess i needed some reality to realise i was so hooked on the past and get over it anyways i've learnt not to be so fricken niave . . . . .i hope.
got MY RUIN tickets
went for job interview . . . . aint heard back from them yet . . . . decided not to go back to college . . . . can't afford it and if i want me own place gonna have to wrk for it.
me lady starting to play mind games and digging at things i've fucked up on in the past . . . .
relationships suck
i want to be with her . . . . . but im shit at bein a girlfriend . . . . she says she likes me to much but i keep fuckin up and i hate it when its over and u realise how much u suck . . . . . thinkin of gettin out before i hurt her . . its me i dont trust i would never cheat but everyone says that before there's temptation . . . . .
i dont think i know her as well as i thought i did . . . . . startin to sense lie's and bitterness towards me.
but when it's good it's good . . . .
ggrrrr fucking ggrrrr i suck
got MY RUIN tickets
went for job interview . . . . aint heard back from them yet . . . . decided not to go back to college . . . . can't afford it and if i want me own place gonna have to wrk for it.
me lady starting to play mind games and digging at things i've fucked up on in the past . . . .
relationships suck
i want to be with her . . . . . but im shit at bein a girlfriend . . . . she says she likes me to much but i keep fuckin up and i hate it when its over and u realise how much u suck . . . . . thinkin of gettin out before i hurt her . . its me i dont trust i would never cheat but everyone says that before there's temptation . . . . .
i dont think i know her as well as i thought i did . . . . . startin to sense lie's and bitterness towards me.
but when it's good it's good . . . .
ggrrrr fucking ggrrrr i suck
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darkhorse:
I don't know anyone who hasn't had those problems in a relationship hun. The temptation thing is huge but controllable. My lady is at that stage where she hates me goin out with female friends, now that sucks.... I wanna be with her but if i wanted a mother i'd still live at home....... Goin to see miss tairrie B eh? Can't wait for Deftones!!!!!!!!! got the day off work for it today!!!!
bryn:
Libras are always the sign i cant guess. why? maybe its cause youre so damn mysterious [sarcasm, luv, sarcasm]