melody

its been really hard since marc passed away 2 weeks ago...im not handling it to well... todays the first day i havent cried... i lost it after i saw him at his wake... he looked so plastic... he looked so not like marc but i knew it was him because of his index finger... i remember the weirdest shit...when he would be asleep or just relaxing his hand would rest a certain way to where his finger would poke out more than the rest of his fingers (if that makes since) and his finger was doin that... i couldnt get to close to him becaue ive never seen a dead person before... well my great grandpa but thats different..way differnt than this... this was my love of my life at one givin point of time...its been a year this month that we broke up... we became so close after we broke up tho... *sigh* i miss him so much... its hard to go threw everyday living and im sorry to people i dont post back too...its not that i dont care its that im sad and i dont feel up to doing much of anything... im making myself post this because i do care enough not to leave everybody in the dark...


he hated wearing shirts, shoes and sox..and boy undies... so basically all he wore were phat pants and ufos... hehe... when he wore his ufos i would grab the strings from the side pockets when i was sitting behind him and go "MUSH MUSH"...he would bark right after i said that everytime... it was so cute... he was the one that named my birthmark on my chest by my boobie... Bob the arangotang constolation he says... he was playing connect the dots and when hw as done he got all excited... and jumped from the bed nakid to make make the pose bob's makin on my birthmark..hahaha...

maybe hes havin fun with brody.. wherever they are i hope they are happy...