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mellisa

I'm a small town girl in a great big city

Member Since 2005

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Sunday Apr 10, 2005

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if i had to use one word to describe myself, it would be, at the present moment, numb.

im not sure i feel to much right now.
im really unsure if i want to know what word people would pick for me, but fuck it.

what would you use?

xip, my sweet and raunchy love muffin, your last response in my journal made me jump around and scream and yell and finally cry. i wanted to take that stupid guy and feed him his nuts with grilled brussel sprouts. im glad you came out ok, and turned into the supreme sweetness sexi brilliant creature that you are. if i had my ay i make you all mine and keep you and take care of you and pamper you foreva!

anger mad mad mad
my expierence was not that bad
and altho it still hurts i know ill figure it out.
ill be ok, some day. he still wont let me go, or say goodbye. but. ill have to find a way around that. seeing as he is with someone else and all i guess i should at least try to move on. i wish i could just not love him. but thats just fucking impossible.
thank you so much for helping me thru this.
you have no idea how much it means. you mean more to me than i can explain.

HOLY SHIT
i get a WHOLE SET dedicated to me? HOT DAM weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

>falls over< xip says she loves me!
im in heaven
still wish we could talk.

sighs. i want to shut my head off. mabey drop some acid and see jesus HA fukin HA. theres no acid in chicago.

i hate it here.

Note to You (you know who you are) : i hope i haunt your thoughts and dreams as much as you haunt mine. at least i wouldnt be alone


things need to be done in threes, 3rd plea help me please. help me let go. i cant do it alone. my heart my mind my body my very soul wont allow it. help me.

i cant sleep. i fucking hate being up all night. but i will be.
i dont think i have ever felt so alone in all my life. this fucking sucks.

gonna go play some games. mabey read a book. which book? one of the beauty books? mabey the long walk. thats grotesque <i spelled that shit all wrong. damn.

someone hit my head with a sledge hammer and make it SHUT THE FUCK UP! mad

if i cry anymore i think ill jusy dry up. my face hurts. fuck fuck fuck.

love you xip
kisskiss

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