My dog is killing me. Slowly but I am damn sure that I will eventually die from lack of sleep.. wtf when did she start confusing noon with 8am?
I HATE where I live. In a few months it will be a year that I have been in this damn place. Makes me feel jumpy, feel like I gotta move but lease isn't up until September.
Ok, so my Mom and I both became seperated/divorced ppl at around the same time. So since she had moved down here to the Augusta, GA area and had a job and I didn't have anywhere.. somehow getting out of a domestically possessive/abusive situation leaves you with nothing, anyways she was like I can't swing the bills and everything by myself you want to grab a place together? and I was like oh hell I got married at 18 to get away from you people! but I was scared to be alone and I had/have no friends. So I consented to said living arrangment, now I love my Mom; I really do. We're both strong independent types and on occassion drive each other to madness but in all it hasn't been that bad.
Now what fucking pisses me off is she is talking to my step-dad again.. the bastard cheated on her with some nasty chic. I won't even get into all that but anyways so they're talking again. Now I try not to listen to other people's conversations but I am starting to get a bit
b/c now it's all this "We" and "us" BS! I figure by the time Sept. rolls around they may be back together and I wish them the very best in a -if he hurts her again I will kill him myself- kind of way.
This leaves a very very large EEEK in my life b/c there will be no way in hell I will live with "them". The whole friends/roomies thing with my Mom is fine but I have never liked him and never will.
September seems a long ways away but I am starting to get this trapped feeling.. I need to go out but I have no clue where to go. I'm feeling lame at the moment. I have never once ever been out dancing or partying since my marriage. It's like the day I got married all of a sudden I was supposed to be this good little military housewife and I have yet to recover my wild youth or something, ugh. Needless to say that totally didn't work out. I'm feeling old.. and I haven't even turned 22 yet ! I need a new piercing or a new tat.. I'm bored.
I HATE where I live. In a few months it will be a year that I have been in this damn place. Makes me feel jumpy, feel like I gotta move but lease isn't up until September.
Ok, so my Mom and I both became seperated/divorced ppl at around the same time. So since she had moved down here to the Augusta, GA area and had a job and I didn't have anywhere.. somehow getting out of a domestically possessive/abusive situation leaves you with nothing, anyways she was like I can't swing the bills and everything by myself you want to grab a place together? and I was like oh hell I got married at 18 to get away from you people! but I was scared to be alone and I had/have no friends. So I consented to said living arrangment, now I love my Mom; I really do. We're both strong independent types and on occassion drive each other to madness but in all it hasn't been that bad.
Now what fucking pisses me off is she is talking to my step-dad again.. the bastard cheated on her with some nasty chic. I won't even get into all that but anyways so they're talking again. Now I try not to listen to other people's conversations but I am starting to get a bit
b/c now it's all this "We" and "us" BS! I figure by the time Sept. rolls around they may be back together and I wish them the very best in a -if he hurts her again I will kill him myself- kind of way.
This leaves a very very large EEEK in my life b/c there will be no way in hell I will live with "them". The whole friends/roomies thing with my Mom is fine but I have never liked him and never will.
September seems a long ways away but I am starting to get this trapped feeling.. I need to go out but I have no clue where to go. I'm feeling lame at the moment. I have never once ever been out dancing or partying since my marriage. It's like the day I got married all of a sudden I was supposed to be this good little military housewife and I have yet to recover my wild youth or something, ugh. Needless to say that totally didn't work out. I'm feeling old.. and I haven't even turned 22 yet ! I need a new piercing or a new tat.. I'm bored.