melitta

This morning I hurt one of my friends, cuz we were having new years eve together, but I was going to a party, home party or how do you call it? house party... so I cancelled her... I feel so damn guilty still...
and I called my other friend to ask her when we meet, then she said at 1:30 am!!! I was like WTF?????
So I called my other friend and we kinda go somewhere, but where I dunno... but her voice was still really hurt, which I can really understand...
Right now Im sitting here fully make uped not yet dressed... but I already lost all of my good mood for tonight
Why cant a new years eve be like good, just a little bit good?
anyway I will drink myself under the table and fuck everything and everyone!!!
Happy new year!