sorry I need to vent big time...warning, not a merry blog
first off I am still sick with the fucking stomach virus so I am here alone on xmas eve, and will be here alone on xmas day. I'm trying not to be so bitter about it, but I am. I'm fucking lonely, bored, sad, sick, nervous.....mad
I'm feeling very needy and I have no one to be here to take care of me, god forbid my BF should take a day off to help me out....he huffs and puffs every time I ask him for something.
He goes out tonite, says he'll be here in an hour, makes me wait...I call and call, no answer cuz he left his phone in the car....thats very frustrating for me, suppose i had an emergency?...he knows I am here alone and sick and frustrated and waiting for him and he doesn't keep his phone with him?
finally he calls, we get in a yelling match, I ignore his calls and turn off my phone. he shows up all pissed, having an attitude with me, I end up throwing my phone, now I can't find it....WTF??!!!!
I fucking hate xmas this year
my fucking cousin that I can't stand and who I got sick from has been wrapping gifts in the kitchen now for 2 hours, stompin up and down the stairs, making a racket with bags and shit...I wanna blow his fucking brains out.........I want him to FUCK OFF already
ok, I guess I'll go watch A CHRISTMAS STORY and wallow in my anger......sorry
first off I am still sick with the fucking stomach virus so I am here alone on xmas eve, and will be here alone on xmas day. I'm trying not to be so bitter about it, but I am. I'm fucking lonely, bored, sad, sick, nervous.....mad
I'm feeling very needy and I have no one to be here to take care of me, god forbid my BF should take a day off to help me out....he huffs and puffs every time I ask him for something.
He goes out tonite, says he'll be here in an hour, makes me wait...I call and call, no answer cuz he left his phone in the car....thats very frustrating for me, suppose i had an emergency?...he knows I am here alone and sick and frustrated and waiting for him and he doesn't keep his phone with him?
finally he calls, we get in a yelling match, I ignore his calls and turn off my phone. he shows up all pissed, having an attitude with me, I end up throwing my phone, now I can't find it....WTF??!!!!
I fucking hate xmas this year
my fucking cousin that I can't stand and who I got sick from has been wrapping gifts in the kitchen now for 2 hours, stompin up and down the stairs, making a racket with bags and shit...I wanna blow his fucking brains out....
.....I want him to FUCK OFF already
ok, I guess I'll go watch A CHRISTMAS STORY and wallow in my anger......sorry
butcherbaby:
