melissabird

really struggling mentally with my future plans...I just don't know what to do with my life. I'm just about 36, been divorced, no children, wanting a baby really badly right now......my BF of 3 yrs just doesn't want a kid and refuses to talk about it. I'm trying to get off my Paxil so I can see where my head is at after that as to the baby thing....going thru a bankruptcy, getting rid of my house....its probably best that we go our separate ways when that happens...I mean lets face it, I already keep a lover on the side because I'm just not completely satisfied. Maybe I'm just not meant to be with anyone one person.....but if I'm not with someone how the hell will I have a baby?...I mean I know how I could have a baby but is that how I want it?!
I'm just so confused.....
*sigh*.........