Well, I managed to dislodge the stick that was up my ass the other day. Gotta love everyone for commenting on my journal so positively....... brightened my day. *Muah* 
So I was reading and I came across this killer quote. It reminded me when I was severely depressed and my ongoing battle with social anxiety....if you can believe that.
"In this mood of lostness every object became extraordinarily heavy, every room oppresive, every task overwhelming. Above all, the world seemed filled with condemning eyes."
Hot damn........that's exactly how I feel sometimes. And it kinda hits home right now cuz my mom FINALLY came to admit that she, too, is depressed. Hmmm.....when it runs in the family, no one is spared. In all my hellish torment my mom was always reading some "parents of depressed children" book or some shit. She tried her hardest to be supportive and understand. But she just didn't. And now that she's through with her DENIAL, I have to be supportive, but I blow at advice and empathy.
Also, I think I am showing signs of manic depression, not just clinical as I was diagnosed. Can't you tell in the journals........the extreme ups and downs? Just a thought.
But I am having a good day so far.
I start school on Monday. Damn me for being a nerd and signing up for the "optional" winter session.
Okay.............love me. It makes me feel better. Does that make me codependent?
So I was reading and I came across this killer quote. It reminded me when I was severely depressed and my ongoing battle with social anxiety....if you can believe that.
"In this mood of lostness every object became extraordinarily heavy, every room oppresive, every task overwhelming. Above all, the world seemed filled with condemning eyes."
Hot damn........that's exactly how I feel sometimes. And it kinda hits home right now cuz my mom FINALLY came to admit that she, too, is depressed. Hmmm.....when it runs in the family, no one is spared. In all my hellish torment my mom was always reading some "parents of depressed children" book or some shit. She tried her hardest to be supportive and understand. But she just didn't. And now that she's through with her DENIAL, I have to be supportive, but I blow at advice and empathy.
Also, I think I am showing signs of manic depression, not just clinical as I was diagnosed. Can't you tell in the journals........the extreme ups and downs? Just a thought.
But I am having a good day so far.
I start school on Monday. Damn me for being a nerd and signing up for the "optional" winter session.
Okay.............love me. It makes me feel better. Does that make me codependent?
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was_nicole:
h i'm nicole.. now you know me so yes come to dinner. for the welcome nicole to la dinner thingy .. which doesn't yet have a decided locale
indie:
are you taking meds for your depression? if not made you should.. it helps sometimes. I will love you up... hehehehe have a great time at school... can't believe that your starting so soon.