melinko

"What neither I nor anyone else around me realised was that the same corrosive that had stripped away my humanity was also responsable for trying to kill me: betrayal. It was a word that rattled around my mind like a rusty tin blade everytime something went wrong. It runs through everyone I know. They wasted their years trying to live the lies that they had created for themselves. Only in private can they really be the demons, hypocrites and sinners that they really are, and woe betide anyone who caught them at their game, because the only thing worst then a lie is a lie exposed. I thought I had learned to protect myself from betrayal by trusting and placing faith in no one. But in the weeks that follow I'm sure to find more. Each one like a hammer driving a stake deeper and deeper into my chest." -Marilyn Manson.

Sorta fits life at the moment.I swear if I had more free skin I would have that tattoo'd somewhere on my body, that and also my favorite MCR lyric. I've become fonder of Underoath (surprise,surprise). I need to find time for myself I use to have to much and now im a workaholic with slim hang out time and have spent everyweekend of July getting smashed on Southern Comfort. Not good for me i would rather not turn into an alcholic that most of my family has dwindled to. Although I feel I deserved it.

It will probably cost me around 870$ to get my car finished and on the road but im psyched up and proud of myself for my lazy ass accomplishing something that i have put off for the past 2 years because i say fuck it why should i when its not a need at the moment. I think thats my update and my account will cancel itself soon. Ill be back im sure I cant seem to keep away from this place. Hopefully Ill be back with yet another set in hand for you to oogle hopefully this one will be accepted.