melikefire

Seems like my life is all about pluses and minuses. Calories out more than calories in....and how many days before I see the difference? And how about the muscle building factor? That's like paying down the principle on my fat so I burn more while I am resting...so what's my passive result? And then how much is not paying utilities on my rental now going to put money back in the bank, although I am at a small negative cash flow? And then where do I put my OT money? My truck which I am getting rid of soon or something else? Plus and minus, plus and minus, plus and minus. Good thing is that I am investnig more time in myself these days and just saw a cool article on the Nevada SPCA. Sounds like a good place to send some of my donation money. So is that plus and minus of Karma? That's not the reason I do it, but maybe, just maybe somebody is keeping score...hmmm. What about myself? What are the yields of investing in myself, like eating right, working out and reducing my stress and cholesterol? Would my last few breaths be spent trying to figure out what the balance was and how I did? If I died suddenly, then would I die easier knowing that I had more healthy plus points than negative? And what really is the point of it all anyway? Who gives a shit either way if I was a good person or bad. Maybe there is no right or wrong per se and we just create our own experience. I am one of the good guys but what's the goal anyway? I try to make the world a better place but wonder how much of a difference I make anyway, in the large, humanity and environmental scale. What's the tangible, specific goal to reach anyhow? What are my benchmarks along the way to know if I am on track? Money isn't everything but it gives me freedom to do some things and make a bigger difference in the world. Where to start without using confusion to avoid?