so i take back everything i said last week... ha ha ha... not really... but damn the bears got good this season... urlacher is a fucking bastard, but i guess that's good for bears fans... jerks...
i don't know still what's up with my insides... the only emotion i feel is blah... and all i want to do is sleep... alone...
i've got no drive, no lust for life or anything else really...
my fucking allergies are totally bothering me... i sneeze about every five seconds...
and i get myself suckered into doing things i really don't want to do... i need to have more integrity and just say no sometimes...
people respect honest dissappointments over begrudged and grumbly following...
i don't think a vacation is going to fix this...
oh but i am still going on one... i fully intend to train it to chicago from oct. 28th through nov. 2nd...
so, you sg chicago bastards better brace yourselves... i don't exactly know why... er... yeah...
i may need a place to stay for a couple nights, so if you've got any leads or locals fill me in... i don't take up much space, i'm a good cook, and i clean thouroughly...
i don't know still what's up with my insides... the only emotion i feel is blah... and all i want to do is sleep... alone...
i've got no drive, no lust for life or anything else really...
my fucking allergies are totally bothering me... i sneeze about every five seconds...
and i get myself suckered into doing things i really don't want to do... i need to have more integrity and just say no sometimes...
people respect honest dissappointments over begrudged and grumbly following...
i don't think a vacation is going to fix this...
oh but i am still going on one... i fully intend to train it to chicago from oct. 28th through nov. 2nd...
so, you sg chicago bastards better brace yourselves... i don't exactly know why... er... yeah...
i may need a place to stay for a couple nights, so if you've got any leads or locals fill me in... i don't take up much space, i'm a good cook, and i clean thouroughly...
The best I can think of is that if I don't seem to get jealous of anything, they think I don't care. What the hell can I do about that? I simply don't get jealous; it's one of the things that did a full 180 when I made HUGE changes to myself a few years back.
I understand the generalities your telling me, but anyone involved with me in the last 4-5 years knows that boldness doesn't phase me, and that I'm atypical in a lot of ways. I dunno.
sorry you feel blah. I definatly understand. unfortunatly..there's no easy fix...just gotta work yourself out of it eventually.