ok, why... what the hell?
i could speak generally at this point to rally some support or sympathy from those of you who relate without revealing anything about what i'm really going through... i could, you know... but i won't
he's exactly like me as far as the sense of humor, and he's nice to me, he says nice things and i feel that he really means them... he's not the most attractive fella, but he is pleasent in his manner and that makes up for a lot in my book... he's respectful and a relatively good kisser...
he's a little pushy and demanding, he called three times today one of which produced a message asking if i was alright because i hadn't called him yet, he said by next week i'll probably be answering a question as to whether or not i would be his girlfriend, he says stuff like "when you meet my mom" and "when we've been together for a while"... he's a lot larger than me to the point it's almost scary because i think he could crush me if he wanted... he is having a hard time finding a job and is living with his mom for the time being, he drives her van because he can't afford insurance for his truck...
wow, that last list was kinda long, and perhaps a bit harsh...
comparatively, he's a lot like what i want... and lacking in what i hate...
so, why do i only think of the ones that don't want me for all their own and no one else?
i never thought it was true until it happened, i sort of prefer guys that keep me waiting and guessing... and he stole that whole feeling of uncertainty that i both love and hate at the beginning of relationships... because he often says "i'm totally into you"
i'm reaching out for advice, any and all will be read and respected, unless you're tongue_boy then i'll just call you a "fuck ass" and add something about your mom
i almost totally forgot, i did my first DJ gig for a redneck wedding tonight, it was a lot harder than it looks bitches!!! especially with all the people asking me to play stuff that was already on the damn list and was going to be played in an appropriate "mix tape" style progression... you bastards
all in all, it was fun...
i only noticeably goofed twice, and i feel that's pretty good for a first run
i could speak generally at this point to rally some support or sympathy from those of you who relate without revealing anything about what i'm really going through... i could, you know... but i won't
he's exactly like me as far as the sense of humor, and he's nice to me, he says nice things and i feel that he really means them... he's not the most attractive fella, but he is pleasent in his manner and that makes up for a lot in my book... he's respectful and a relatively good kisser...
he's a little pushy and demanding, he called three times today one of which produced a message asking if i was alright because i hadn't called him yet, he said by next week i'll probably be answering a question as to whether or not i would be his girlfriend, he says stuff like "when you meet my mom" and "when we've been together for a while"... he's a lot larger than me to the point it's almost scary because i think he could crush me if he wanted... he is having a hard time finding a job and is living with his mom for the time being, he drives her van because he can't afford insurance for his truck...
wow, that last list was kinda long, and perhaps a bit harsh...
comparatively, he's a lot like what i want... and lacking in what i hate...
so, why do i only think of the ones that don't want me for all their own and no one else?
i never thought it was true until it happened, i sort of prefer guys that keep me waiting and guessing... and he stole that whole feeling of uncertainty that i both love and hate at the beginning of relationships... because he often says "i'm totally into you"
i'm reaching out for advice, any and all will be read and respected, unless you're tongue_boy then i'll just call you a "fuck ass" and add something about your mom
i almost totally forgot, i did my first DJ gig for a redneck wedding tonight, it was a lot harder than it looks bitches!!! especially with all the people asking me to play stuff that was already on the damn list and was going to be played in an appropriate "mix tape" style progression... you bastards
all in all, it was fun...
i only noticeably goofed twice, and i feel that's pretty good for a first run
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kira:
i love you... 
patient_zero:
Happy New Years!!