Snow, snow, snow.....I am tired of it. Driving the Winkle in the slush
is quite an accomplishment!
I am a little queasy today and I hope that I am not getting the flu. I
had to call and leave a message with the Dr.s office because no one has called regarding any of my test results!! They called back and they had some of them....and...
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is quite an accomplishment!
I am a little queasy today and I hope that I am not getting the flu. I
had to call and leave a message with the Dr.s office because no one has called regarding any of my test results!! They called back and they had some of them....and...
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khoos:
Thanks 
We're really really excited about it. although the pregnancy symptoms are starting... I feel like I have narcolepsy.
We're really really excited about it. although the pregnancy symptoms are starting... I feel like I have narcolepsy.
melaniek:
sure Jay!!! On my myspace he is linked as xbradx and the band's name is With Honors!
Choices.....we all have them to make. Little ones and big ones. The wrong ones can hurt us and can hurt the people that we love. The right ones can be hard, but make life worth it. I think that we know the negative things that we do and choices that we make, and that we have the power within ourselves to make positive choices. I...
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padre:
Well you're going about it the right way... Let it settle before you make any decisions. Most people panic and make bad choices... Go Mel! ha ha
jay_blank:
Patience can be tough; especially when you want something so badly.
You know I'm around if you want a shoulder.
But, I completely agree with you that we have the power to make the right choices. We can (and must) do what we can to make ourselves happy.
You know I'm around if you want a shoulder.
But, I completely agree with you that we have the power to make the right choices. We can (and must) do what we can to make ourselves happy.
I really hope that everyone has a great valentine's day. It is MY favorite holiday....fake/real...whatever anyone wants to think about it.
This past year has been difficult. And I have the best of thoughts for our future. I truly love him with all my heart! I think that working on our relationship IS working and we are growing closer and closer every day. I know...
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This past year has been difficult. And I have the best of thoughts for our future. I truly love him with all my heart! I think that working on our relationship IS working and we are growing closer and closer every day. I know...
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sharona1881:
awwww you and brad are so lovely! *HUGS* hope your v-day rocked! 
padre:
listen to you be all in love 
Happy vday... you're the first person to say good things about the day...
Happy vday... you're the first person to say good things about the day...
I wish.......
for too many things that are beyond my control.
for too many things that are beyond my control.
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the_boss:
Aye... that's the shitty part eh
big_boy:
join the club 
Therapy was today at noon. I will not have an appt in the middle of my
workday again. very upset...sick to my stomach...worried aboutit all nite and morning and have to go back to
work.
Therapy is like working a sore muscle. You work on it and it is sore for a few
days. Then you can go on.
Issues...guilt. Over friends suicides. Stephanie was...
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workday again. very upset...sick to my stomach...worried aboutit all nite and morning and have to go back to
work.
Therapy is like working a sore muscle. You work on it and it is sore for a few
days. Then you can go on.
Issues...guilt. Over friends suicides. Stephanie was...
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serenity225:
That is some pretty heavy stuff. Wise move not to have therapy in the middle of the work day anymore. I have personal experience with suicide. My fiance jumped from a 9 story building 11 years ago the 6th. I had actually left him 2 years prior because of his addiction to cocaine and I was sober for 4 years struggling to live two lives. I almost died with him. Spiritual death comes before physical death and I was spiritually dead.
He carried on in his addiction until he could take no more. I remained close to his family after the break and I was the first one called the day he died. He was weighing heavily on my mind the other day and I was commenting at a 12 step meeting about some relationship growth for me and the story of him and I was flooding out all over the place then I realized right in the middle of my comment that it'd been 11 years that day.
Suicide is a bizzarre animal. No matter how many times you try to put the puzzle together one piece always remains missing yet we try to put it all together over and over again. It's normal. When someone wants to complete nothing will stop them but devine intervention. There was nothing any of us could do for Chad.
I attended S.O.S groups for awhile after his death and took his little sister with me. She was only 14 or 15 at the time. It was horrible. Oh, S.O.S. stands for Survivors of Suicide. Look them up. I dunno if they are in your are or not.
He carried on in his addiction until he could take no more. I remained close to his family after the break and I was the first one called the day he died. He was weighing heavily on my mind the other day and I was commenting at a 12 step meeting about some relationship growth for me and the story of him and I was flooding out all over the place then I realized right in the middle of my comment that it'd been 11 years that day.
Suicide is a bizzarre animal. No matter how many times you try to put the puzzle together one piece always remains missing yet we try to put it all together over and over again. It's normal. When someone wants to complete nothing will stop them but devine intervention. There was nothing any of us could do for Chad.
I attended S.O.S groups for awhile after his death and took his little sister with me. She was only 14 or 15 at the time. It was horrible. Oh, S.O.S. stands for Survivors of Suicide. Look them up. I dunno if they are in your are or not.
melaniek:
Thank you for the advice. I had a hard time after Stephanie's death...it just was not real for me until I saw her in the casket. It was just unbeliveable. Mark's death was preventable to me. Mark had broken up with his girlfriend and she had moved to Altanta with something of his. He went there to get it back. He would not wait until my friend Cara or I could go with him. Apparently there was some sort of arguement and allegations, and Mark left angry and upset.
I am so sorry that this has also touched your life. I wish that it did not EVER touch anyone's lives. It is so hard to take for the ones left behind.
thank you again....it certainly helps to know that others also know and understand.
I am so sorry that this has also touched your life. I wish that it did not EVER touch anyone's lives. It is so hard to take for the ones left behind.
thank you again....it certainly helps to know that others also know and understand.
I had a hard day today at work. New software acting up, printing acting up, on the phone and with IT all afternoon. Just stressed. 
I had my physical....well, half of my physical on monday. I have the other half and more bloodwork next week. Yay! I hated to tell my doctor what was going on in my life, but I had to. My therapist...
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I had my physical....well, half of my physical on monday. I have the other half and more bloodwork next week. Yay! I hated to tell my doctor what was going on in my life, but I had to. My therapist...
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gigabrain:
so yeah...ud be proud of me right now...finally spoke to the girl...
big_boy:
LL is the bomb....enjoyed see you in chat last night
woke up in the best way possible!
I made sausage biscuits for breakfast and I love them! I don't make them very often. Yum!
I was listening to him play guitar earlier. I love it. I wish I heard it more often. I wish that I could play. I have half-heartedly tried before to learn. I have small hands and I don't have much flexibility...
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I made sausage biscuits for breakfast and I love them! I don't make them very often. Yum!
I was listening to him play guitar earlier. I love it. I wish I heard it more often. I wish that I could play. I have half-heartedly tried before to learn. I have small hands and I don't have much flexibility...
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the_boss:
I was too lazy to cook this mornin so I wussed out and went to the usual place for breakfast.
I still am going to therapy every week...darn. But I guess that I do need it. She did have a very astute observation. She said that the adult me is very even tempered, very logical, very determined, very sure of what I want and how I can work on it. But there are glimpses of an insecure child-very vulnernable and unsure-and then the very strong...
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galaxy42:
Keep making progress. Your check list is a good one...
All the luck to you.
All the luck to you.
I think that things have really been going well in our relationship. I
think that we HAVE been more giving-open-honest-loving-forthcoming
recently.
I was told something Saturday that really put my mind at ease about a
few things. And this comment was unsolicited, which meant a great deal
to me. The only thing that I worry about is that I want to be #1 and
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think that we HAVE been more giving-open-honest-loving-forthcoming
recently.
I was told something Saturday that really put my mind at ease about a
few things. And this comment was unsolicited, which meant a great deal
to me. The only thing that I worry about is that I want to be #1 and
the...
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I am having a song THAT I DON'T NORMALLY LIKE go through my head and I have not gotten rid of it for a week. It comes and goes and apparently a few lines of it coincides with my mind grapes. (haha...30 Rock reference!)
It is Erasure "A little Respect"
I try to discover
A little something to make me sweeter
Oh baby refrain
From...
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It is Erasure "A little Respect"
I try to discover
A little something to make me sweeter
Oh baby refrain
From...
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