Vyvyan is doing great. She is eating, drinking, playing, and being lovey. She is a little freaked out by my menthol puffs that i got because my sinuses are cranky AND is VERY enamored of my godzilla cursor on my computer. She won't leave it alone!!!!
Monday while at work I heard sirens. I looked out my window and after a bit figured out what was going on. A lady was on the bridge, ready to jump. Fortunately, she was talked down. And I could see this from my window. And I could sympathize with her. I think everyone can at one time or another. We all get to a place that we feel that we can't go on or figure out how to help ourselves. And that is when you need your friends, loved ones, or a counselor to help. I have been there before and I am glad that I pushed through. I hope that lady does too.
Work has been super busy. I have worked on so many files that my eyes hurt. We had a projection meeting about what was expected in the coming year. I worked on 6 million dollars worth of loans last year. And considering my average loan size is about $30,000, that is a LOT. They want our production to mirror what is happening right now, but I feel this will drop off substantially in just a few months due to the economy.
We also had a blowout between my boss and Lisa. And it was a LONG time coming too. There was yelling, a closed door, and then an apology lunch. But this argument could have pertained to any of us. Lisa DID make her realize that she was TRYING to assert power and assign blame AND argue to make us feel that we did something wrong. We all got an apology a couple of days later.
I hate feeling all emo, but that happens every once in a while. It has gone on this week too. I know that I am super stressed about everything, but every once in a while I feel unlovable, untouchable, undesirable, etc. And this is what I think of that....
And my headache is starting to go away, so I will get back to cleaning up my room and packing some.
Monday while at work I heard sirens. I looked out my window and after a bit figured out what was going on. A lady was on the bridge, ready to jump. Fortunately, she was talked down. And I could see this from my window. And I could sympathize with her. I think everyone can at one time or another. We all get to a place that we feel that we can't go on or figure out how to help ourselves. And that is when you need your friends, loved ones, or a counselor to help. I have been there before and I am glad that I pushed through. I hope that lady does too.
Work has been super busy. I have worked on so many files that my eyes hurt. We had a projection meeting about what was expected in the coming year. I worked on 6 million dollars worth of loans last year. And considering my average loan size is about $30,000, that is a LOT. They want our production to mirror what is happening right now, but I feel this will drop off substantially in just a few months due to the economy.
We also had a blowout between my boss and Lisa. And it was a LONG time coming too. There was yelling, a closed door, and then an apology lunch. But this argument could have pertained to any of us. Lisa DID make her realize that she was TRYING to assert power and assign blame AND argue to make us feel that we did something wrong. We all got an apology a couple of days later.
I hate feeling all emo, but that happens every once in a while. It has gone on this week too. I know that I am super stressed about everything, but every once in a while I feel unlovable, untouchable, undesirable, etc. And this is what I think of that....
And my headache is starting to go away, so I will get back to cleaning up my room and packing some.